I am going through a breakup which happened last night. I am feeling  so much anxiety and grief of loss of my boyfriend.  I am not able to distract myself. What should I do?

I have lost my appetite and feels like I am sick

Relationships

My mom threw a knife at me today. Glad it wasn't a severe injury but a small cut around my thigh.  She was angry and thats why whatever she found first thing in the house she threw at me to punish me.
I just want a shoulder to cry on nothing else.

Domestic Abuse

Any one here to be my good friend because I am in depressed 😔 ☹️ 💔🥺🙃

Breakup

A little tensed 

Teenagers

So i am in a relationship with this person. She Is Moody person. I mean whatever she says Keeps on changing everyday. It also depends on Her work and her family too. Which means When some situation happens at her home she Will leave me alone When she is busy she wont call or text once. And When everything is Okay she will talk for hours. More further she always Says to me I am the way i was in past. I want to stay alone sometimes i cant be with anyone and all that running away things. Whenever i am angry she takes it lightly and Jokes it away laughing And that time listen to me as if i am Giving an lecture. I Know she is going to choose her family not me if situation comes. I know everything but i am addicted to her now i dont know what should i do.

Life

Uff ....at this small age of 15 ...so much pressure, acceptance etc. Sometimes feel like giving up everything thing except one thing 🙂

Exhausted

Today, after days of deliberation I decided to put an effort to lose weight. I have been insecure about my figure for a while. The insecurity is so deeply engraved that I barely go out and  often get into a fit of tears before I go to bed. If being insecure isn't enough I barely study. This is the most crucial period for college admission yet I managed to waste the whole year by procrastinating,  and depreciating myself. I made attempts to study and get back on track ie to be my normal diligent self but instead I sank down along with my confidence. In the end I have extra weight and lesser self esteem.
So today I managed to go through what I planned for weight loss, something doable yet effective, but then my brother comes demotivating me and reprimands me telling that I will never get through with the plan in the first place and its all a waste of time. Being a bit sensitive it got me into tears and now I feel that I am back to level zero.

Self Esteem

It gets even hard to breathe sometimes. I wish to sleep and never wake up. Cause the reality's too harsh to face

3am Thoughts

As if i can go back and reassess why i am marrying this person whom I met once , and he said over message that he want to marry , from no where.As he has everything in his house and in life only missing is me ,as what he used to say . And me the naive one never ever been in any short of  relationship, could like to consider him and give a try how much bad it can happen, just that i challenge myself.i fall from him day by day and he used to keep me unseen for a day or week, i don't know we are in relationship or not when i used to come back in the city he never put up any effort to meet. And this way 1.5yr passed, i change my city and choose his place to work , and married him within month after joining , as he say to told my parents and marriage everything about us and we are from different cast, so there is repercussions so in hurry he convinced me to marry as after marriage or if it take longer having baby will change there midset. And i being in marriage 2.5yr and in my last month of pregnancy nothing change from my parents side, i even didn't saw them since then , they just leave in 10-15km away from me. And now the cause why i am reassessing is i have trust issue with him, he make up stories, about each and everything, he always stuck with his phone, never ever leave his phone , even if have to charge , get charge in different room , i even don't know the password, but some how i mange to see his social media chat with different different girl, but at the same time older chats are deleted, these girls are married  having children, and he always used to say he sleep early once he slept its difficult to wake him up but now due to my insomnia i saw him over is phone typing or chating in odd hours , and as i asked him, he secure his guard high evertime, and put  blame on me, that he can't have friend, he only talk to peoples if ever its necessary and its only related to work and its all because of me because i keep on questioning him. And how loyal he his he come back direct home after office never ever go or hang with friends, and as per record he said to me he never have friends and a good child always. He used to have gf in his college and he didn't told me anything about it and there is some seen about it, means having involvement of police and all (as he said later on that police man was her relative) i still don't know the whole story, as they go together outside country for higher study so i think there must be something strong between them and it was good 5-6yr relationship, seeing his past and now what he is doing write now, i am in guilt now and can't figure out my future or there is what other hidden truth to be unfold.

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