I am fixated on the idea that my nose is larger than it should be even though EVERYONE around me has told me it's not. So i decided to go to the doctor and later found out that i have body dysmorphic disorder. I took counselling for a while but it just doesn't seem to help. I am always insecure about my face, my nose. 

You are beautiful. Inside and out. I hope you embrace this xx

YOU'RE BEAUTIFULLLL. Don't let society standards get to you

Just love the way you are because you are perfect.

Can you get a second opinion? A lot of people are insecure about something about their body. Doesn't mean they have body dysmorphic disorder. You can even get a nose job if you think it might help you feel better.

Please don't feel insecure 
You can see an example of Tahira Kashyap she didn't fell insecure but she embraced her beauty
No one is perfect in this world don't focus what other say be confident the way you are 

Mental Health

Past few days, I suffered and survived but now I think is all over now. I'm unable to handle it all. I used to loose my best friends, to whom I think that we always together but she betrayed me. I never thin that I'm surrounded with snakes. I think that my boyfrnd is used to understand me but he is also a girgit, he used to treat me according to his mood. I'm over now😣😭 
I lost behind, no one is mine even I'm not connected with my family too much.
I disconnected my self from Instagram, Facebook since 1 and 2years respectively.  I'm started meditating, try to understand my need and centered my self. But I feel alone in myself, i have no one to whom I call mine 😭 with lots of courage to make my self relief of this burden i wrote all this here with lots of grammatical mistakes 🥺. I'm crying while writing all this.
In my age we loose we gain but it is too painful 😭😭. I just want to move on with all this but I'm unable to done it all alone 🥺😭😭😭😭

Life

Anybody watched kashmir files ?
Is it family friendly ?
Like no ki$$ and $€× scene and no abusive words ?

3am Thoughts

I think I may have some serious personality disorder. I can't stop being reckless or impulsive, yet I prefer a gracious and elegant attitude above anything else. 

Personality Disorder

I miss you 💔 you run through my mind. I love you. But i will never come back into your life. I dont want to cause another menace in your life. 💔 Its been hard. I tried hard to fake but not able to for two long years. I dont understand why. Its difficult. I feel guilty for people around me who love me to the moon and earth. The thought itself makes me feel awful. I still miss you 💔 You will be there in my prayers. Stay Happy. I will be fine. People around me are caring and supportive. I will be through this mess of thoughts. I had hurt few in ur family. Hope they forgive me. 💔 You will be loved. I will have you in my prayers. LOVE IS JUST HELL. 

That effin doctor reduced the dosage and because of that i am suffering . That storm in my brain wont stop . The memories or theperson just pops up without any reason . Even though i slept . I cant relax . I didn't want this to happen to me on my day 

Addiction

Going out and coming back home safe is a blessing. 

Gratitude

what countries are you guys from?
-USA

I made a fake scenario - 
I am at a club. My crush is there too. Some of my friends and Co workers are there as well. There is another guy who is a random dude, who is drunk as hell. He approaches me. Starts talking to me. Asks me out to dance and for a date the next day. I hesitate a lot. "Um" and "uhhh.." And "aahhs" are all I could say. I get uncomfortable because of the guy, so I approach my crush. "Hey, I am so sorry to bother you, can I talk to you for a sec?" He goes " yeah sure" I tell him "you see this guy behind me, he was making me so uncomfortable, can you just plesse stay here with me for a while?"  " yeah no worries. I'll do you one better - i'll pretend to be your bf. And i'm sure that'll keep you safe" He says while staring into his gorgeous eyes and he staring into mine, trying to absorb all the things I am saying. We get rid of the guy and we unexpectedly start to talk alot. Since we had to pretend to be bf and gf, there was touching too. I tell him, I need to go home now, he goes "really?" And he accompanies me outside, and I have my friends waiting  for me in the car, he says "here's my number." And kisses me Goodnight on the cheek. I get a little courageous and peck him on the lips and tell him "I'll text you" 😉
 

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