I am feeling very hopeless about everything in my life I don't know why am I living.Feeling very demotivated about everything.

Breakup

Why do we hve a life...?
To love or to live???
Or for anything else???

3am Thoughts

I don't want to be here anymore, I am really tired, it doesn't matter how much I sleep anymore I am always finding myself tired. I Don't even feel happy anymore it has become a foreign emotion to me. The only emotions I catch myself feeling are those of sadness and anxiety, the only time I can rest and feel at ease is when I distract myself with movies or video games. Let me tell you I haven't had a single day of pure happiness for years, not a single day where I can let my problems disappear and enjoy the beautiful sun shining and feeling the warm embrace of the sun. Recently I haven't been feeling anything, Idk if it's a good thing or a bad thing. I no longer feel sad for long periods of time but that of numbness, it's a weird emotion I am not used to. I can describe it as...feeling free, with nothing to worry of.

Depression

What’s the meaning of life to you ?

Conflict

Many times I expressed how sadness became an emotion of comfort to me, letting it in so deep in my unconscious making harder to let it go and making my life difficult to manage due to creating and enhancing negative patterns I follow impulsively. I let it stretch so far in me, growing from childhood to today. Difficult to say why I didn't let happiness be my comfort instead of sadness, not noticing that feeling this way was bad until I figured out what was the root of my problems.
I'm working on it and it's still difficult, not many time passed since I tried to combat it with many other old emotions I have accumulated but this one is frustating because the peace it makes me feel and I shouldn't is hard to get rid off, more so if I don't have anything more solid to grab myself into. Sadness, negative emotions I can't describe have been inhabited inside me and I let myself be at home with them. I dissociate and be with them, it calms me down to the point I'm almost sleepy. Comfort, a strange warmness that shouldn't be there.
When I feel vitalized, I don't miss it. At all. The energy and happiness that makes me alive I can find in things is something I luckly found easier and I hope I still do, yet something else to grasp a sense of home and comfort is still a difficult find.
This is to me, a reminder that I'm still working on myself and no need to feel frustated when we barely started. We will get through, I will learn and say goodbye to it when it's time; even if it never goes away, it won't use me to inhabit itself anymore. I'm sure of it. Just don't let yourself in entirely, don't let it consume you like it did for years. Let's go step by step, work on the consequences to understand the root and let it go when I do.

What do you guys think what is the purpose of life?

i don't know what i feel right now... i just feel empty... My mental health is getting worse. i  just feel like nothing is real around me n i feel like i'm just wasting my life. i can't feel happiness anymore. i've lost hope. i'm so tired of everything. sometime i think bout myself and i realised how disgusting i am..

Mental Health

The past few days have been emotional for me and my phone getting spoilt was the climax for me. I try my best to keep my emotions in check even when all I want to do is cry. Crying is the only form of self-expression I’m well acquainted with, when I’m angry, sad, happy, irritated and the likes I only want to cry. Since I came back for this school year I’ve been feeling a heightened amount of anxiety and body dysmorphia and I can’t talk to anyone here about it because everyone is a robot that doesn’t like to concern themselves with emotions instead they like to drink till they throw up all over the place and smoke till they don’t even know what 2+2 is. It’s hard living with all this doubt and knowing there’s no one you can talk to about it. Since my phone screen inked I’ve had to depend on other people and I hate that more than anything but mostly I hate the fact that everything I do has to be on someone else’s schedule. I’m tired of feeling and I’m just drained and over it all.

Anxiety

I feel lost often these days. I do not feel confident about doing anything and I hate and just get worried about things. I feel like a loser and be in a constant loop on questioning my existence. 

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