I am feeling very bad due to incest practiced by me in my childhood for just one time with a blood relative girl.

Happens, I think with everyone. But no one speak about it. This is probably because no proper sex education or its just about age when we start to realise  different things with different gender.

Hey!
In childhood, we don't know what we do/did. 
However, you should know now was right according to you or not. Do you regret it or feel it's okay to get intimate with someone from your own relationship. 

Relationships

My favorite childhood memory is when my mother dressed me in a pink barbie dress. It was the most beautiful dress i have ever worn and it was for some house party. I love dressing up so you can relate why its my favorite childhood memory. 

Family

I am losing hope.

Depression

I am losing hope

we laughed we cried but it wasn't enough, I tried too hard to keep your love, but it was like it never mattered I know it was wrong but my heart wasn't strong cuz every time I tried to get it together it went off like a bomb & the lies would grow every time I got home. Cuz no matter how hard I tried I knew I couldn't survive. My parents didn't know and I wish I let you go. But your love was a drug and it was too late because I was addicted, so Fuck true love sex is enough right? That's what they say, isn't it? they lure you in the dead of night just to hit & quit before you all fight. But Fuck it, my life's in pieces, it's the pile of lies that came crashing down now I'm not mad its more of jealousy you see when I notice you with her it's like she's your everything, and I'm your side piece, why am I a Pisces cuz my emotions are wack sometimes my heart will crack and can't be fixed but ever since I met you life has been shit, I've lost their trust when they found out, but I lied to protect them because I was ashamed in all this fame, a disappointment is in reign, as queen because the more I sit in sorrow the more mean I can be, now I'm waiting on the day my parents see it wasn't my fault all of this is me being a rebellious teen. And they can't lie that they were angels because before you can fly you have to fall once or twice. And in a fright, if you have sex once in your life, your parents have the right to call you a whore, so my bad dad, sorry to be a bore but to fail you as your daughter must be a bother, next time you'll all bow down and hail the queen, because if I'm a demon as a teen just wait till the devil is free, now I'm not saying I'm perfect, hell that'll never be true, I'm just saying the truth, all this fucked up shit makes me sound like a bitch buy you gotta see it from my point of view all the fights and long nights got me scarred for life, I'm not sure if I'll make it through it cuz I'm barely 16 & had too many dreams. You gotta understand teens make mistakes no harm in that just take your time to talk back rather than misunderstand them, because there is no telling what they will do with their minds so underdeveloped, it's a dangerous game with the devil and they need some help up, off the ground, cuz scraping your knees after falling down is a pain that you can drown in a bottomless pit full of darkness, it's taking over now, and this devil needs a sacrifice here's some advice run as far as you can, and don't think twice. the more you stick around the harder shit gets so listen to me spittin this because in my next life I'm still gonna be a bitch, I'm a queen that don't need a ring to bring hellfire to the scene, parents are mean no need to be extreme if you wanna make it out alive you gotta be prepared to fight for your life, now I'm putting on my crown no backing down, my horns are out, and I'm rising up from the underground no rules for me I'm the devil's queen and now I'm free to be me.

No hope in life

I DON’T KNOW WHO WANT TO LISTEN TO THIS BUT. EVEN IF NO ONE HAS EVER TOLD YOU THIS I HOPE YOU WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER
- YOU ARE WORTHY
EVEN IN YOUR DIFFICULTIES, THIS IS A SEASON THAT HAS TESTED YOU FOR TOO LONG AND I KNOW IT'S NOT BEEN EASY FOR YOU TO KEEP HOLDING ON BUT HERE YOU ARE MY FRIEND, BRAVE AND STRONG, KEEP
GOING DESPITE IT ALL.

3am Thoughts

I miss you :( Even tho you hurt me, I still love you. I haven't forgive you, but I miss the times that you care for me. You showed me that you love me. Your comforting words that have the best timing. Pls come back. I'm willing to give you second chance 

Breakup

I want to get over you...but whenever i try getting over you then i think that you may like me...even though i know u don't like me..🙂

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