I am feeling so low and lonely. I have lost interest in almost everything. Maybe pandemic has made me like this or is it just the usual mood swing I have no idea. Nobody talks to me or maybe I don’t feel like talking to anybody. I’m getting up very late these days believing the more late i get up the less time I will have to overthink and feel the boring way. I used to be an extrovert and now I feel so disconnected beecause of such minimal or no human interaction. Talking on social media is just not my way. I was never a fb or whatsapp or even an insta person. Neither I have the ability or habit nor any potential left to talk t people there now. I miss human connection. Everybody posting about their achievements and productive work and how this time will never come back so we should utilise it too makes me feel like a Big Loser. I am losing my mind. Everything is feeling like a burden. Days of talking with same person today I realized that nobody even talks to me except that person and how everything is so dry. Online classes are such a stress too. Constant pressure of covering up the syllabus while understanding 0% content in classes is another challenge. Everybody’s ranting , whatever I say makes me useless and nobody even talks to me nicely. I am fed up of even crying in the bathroom every alternate day. With tons of online courses piled up which I took up in the lockdown to be productive to not having the energy to even study my course or even read any book. I feel suffocated. All this is hard.
anna @catgotmytongue77
i hear you. so many things just get piled up and then when you see the big stack of stuff all you feel is regret and guilt and freaking tired. I’ve been there, very recently. You’re not a Big Loser, nope, you’re a Beautiful Person. Maybe it’s hard to see that right now, i get it. You should take a break. Take some days off from your extra classes, go on a road trip or something or go somewhere that you’ve always wanted to go. Take some time off of guilt and regret and just let yourself do whatever you want without feeling bad about it. Go out into the world if you can(still safely covid wise) and meet new people in whatever way possible. And if you can’t keep up with the extra things that you signed up for just remember, they are extra. You signed up for them and if it’s too hard to keep it up, it’s beautiful that you know where your limitations are. Celebrate the fact that only you can know what you can do and only you can make your own choices. The world is your oyster :)
Thank you for this
anna @catgotmytongue77
glad I could help
Hi, start your day with the work you love the most and that is only for yourself it might be either writing,face mask or gardening, meditation. This builds up pleasant mood, positivity.Prioritize your courses, online classes. Do one thing at a time. This might help you out to overcome the feeling of disconnectedness.