I am feeling so low and lonely. I have lost interest in almost everything. Maybe pandemic has made me like this or is it just the usual mood swing I have no idea. Nobody talks to me or maybe I don’t feel like talking to anybody. I’m getting up very late these days believing the more late i get up the less time I will have to overthink and feel the boring way. I used to be an extrovert and now I feel so disconnected beecause of such minimal or no human interaction. Talking on social media is just not my way. I was never a fb or whatsapp or even an insta person. Neither I have the ability or habit nor any potential left to talk t people there now. I miss human connection. Everybody posting about their achievements and productive work and how this time will never come back so we should utilise it too makes me feel like a Big Loser. I am losing my mind. Everything is feeling like a burden. Days of talking with same person today I realized that nobody even talks to me except that person and how everything is so dry. Online classes are such a stress too. Constant pressure of covering up the syllabus while understanding 0% content in classes is another challenge. Everybody’s ranting , whatever I say makes me useless and nobody even talks to me nicely. I am fed up of even crying in the bathroom every alternate day. With tons of online courses piled up which I took up in the lockdown to be productive to not having the energy to even study my course or even read any book. I feel suffocated. All this is hard.