Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I am feeling so lonely and useless…all of the people around my age are so much talented and know what they want from their life…i want to learn things but my parents never support me they always choose my brother over me…few days ago i decided to learn a new language and asked my parents for their permission first they allowed…but then after few days they enrolled my elder brother for some diploma course and asked me to wait…it’s not like we are poor or something then also idk why they behave like this with me…i still remember how my mother used to punish me in childhood when i used to do some mistake…but that shouldn’t be called punishment that was abuse…i still remember when my mother saw my messages with my bf and she used to call me characterless…i used to feel so bad…why is she like that…how can she behave normal just after beating me or just after breaking my heart with her words…i just want to move away from here…i want to feel good…i want to feel happy for once.