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I am feeling sacred. I am gonna start working at my previous university where me and my ex use to study together. Everyone knows about us dating all over professor and junior’s and I’m scared that when I go there for work and he comes to know about that, He would try to meet me and talk about the break up and everything (we broke up on phone during lockdown) or might create some scene at the university and spoil my reputation and make me look like the bad person in the relationship. I have been really low on self confidence and also have social anxiety and I fear people will judge me constantly and I am scared. I have been an introvert all my life it is difficult for me to make friends and on top of that I feel insecure because of my weight issues. I constantly feel that people will talk behind my back and judge me. I am scared that he would come and make a scene there and I might loose the job because of that or I might have to go with him and talk about all that so he doesn’t create any scene at university and he would make me miserable again. He had done that before, taken advantage of my social anxiety and treated me like shit. I know the more I will be scared of him the more he would take advantage of it but what should I do I am really scared and insecure, how can I stop felling this? I can’t have 100% confidence within few days it will take time to built I know. Any advice please I can really use it.

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Anonymous

just text him that if you have ever cared about me as you were saying in your last messages that i am everything to you,you would never mess with my work and that too in university where any talk rounds like fire among children.dont ruin your beautiful memories inside me pls.
i dont know whether this will work or not but i think you should talk to him about it as a precaution.

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@bnp

I don’t think I should message him and inform about me joining work. Hopefully nothing like that happens and I won’t have to face those situations. But if I had to I would definitely tell him to that. Thanks 💛

Anonymous

just one question popped inside my head,pls dont take it offensive because you have posted to seek guidance(previous post as well):
do you enjoy the show!! just think and you dont need to answer it.(because in previous of your post i couldnt figure out what is exactly wrong here).

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@bnp

What are you trying to ask? See if you meant that I enjoy the sympathy or something like that than it’s a NO. I am just posting my raw thoughts here because it’s the only place where I can talk about my feelings openly and won’t feel judged bcoz no one really knows who is who here. I really needed to get all this thoughts out and with this website I can get advice from people like you and me who might have experienced similar situation or can guide me like a friend. So that’s the only reason I post my thoughts.

Anonymous

i am also posting my raw advises here but you judged me that i am judging you 😝
keep posting i wont bother you next time😊 and yes i didnt ask anything.

Anonymous

i just suggested a mere possibility(as i thought fit) to analyze and i didnt know that it would hurt you.

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@bnp

No it’s not that easy to offend me. Relax and No I am not judging you I simply asked bcoz I couldn’t understand your point of view. Anyways Thanks Love.

Anonymous

“and i didnt know that it would hurt you.” i wrote it to just make you chill 😝
still not offended!!😂.just kidding.best of luck for your new life at university😊.

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@bnp

Thanks💙