I am feeling both sad and happy at the same time. Is that even possible?


Anxiety

Omg did you call me baby? 

Music

Ever tried meditating putting legs inside the cold flowing water. 

Meditation

please tell me if decent guys still exist nowadays. 

Boyfriend

This Stress and Overthinking killing me inside.😣

Overthinking

Suggest song 
Lonely long drive kinda feel

Lonely

I feel so lost, empty, worthless, unproductive, exhausted and I'm questioning the purpose of my living. 
I'm just a simple girl before who is very passionate, joyful, creative and innocent. I'm already happy with my friends and my family, but then the world starts to open my eyes in reality. I started to drink and to come home late. But God sent me a guy who gave meaning to my life, he help me to leave my bad habits and save me from my toxic friends. We were so happy at first, but time comes that he's starting to change and he want to end up our relationship. It hurts so much because I gave everything to him, even my virginity. He promise me that he won't leave me, I believed in him because he's a good man and we're legal both sides in our family. I trust him so much that's why I depend my life on him, but I don't have a choice because he don't love me anymore, so even I beg him to stay is we still end up to break up. After that, I got back to my habits and it got worst. I drink irresponsibly and come home in the next morning. At first, I was enjoying my freedom, but when one night that there's a boy who fucked me coz I'm drunk, it boost up my insecurities. I feel so disgusting, I feel like I'm a trash and I don't know anymore. Then last night, it happened again, a guy fucked me then gone. I don't want it to happen but he was pushing me and I'm scared. I don't know anymore, I'm so ashamed to my parents. I hate myself. I don't feel to live anymore coz I think I don't deserve anything on this world. 

Take note: I'm just 18 and my family is so traditional and respectable, that's why I'm ashamed of myself.

PLEASE GIVE ME HELP. 

Depression

i had a 15 yr old gf
but now she broke up with me

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