I am feeling bored 😑 please suggest me some platform where I can get to learn new hobbies 

I don't have any tips but I can share you the platforms where you can learn it for free and also practice it

YouTube - Unpaid
Udemy, Skillshare - Paid

Adulting

I am feeling anxious and am scared to sleep. Does this happen to anyone else or only me? I am feeling very sleepy but I am scared if anything happens while sleeping.

Anxiety

Guys why can't parents be emotionally available for their children & stand for them when someone says something treat you as worst, they just stand there & watch it as if a show is going on ... But surprising thing here is my parents won't say any word to  relative children, so actually i was getting all those memories from my childhood & could stop crying now still so I am not able to accept it how can they do this to me , still now after grown person i am facing alot of things due to those things more than this which happened, are they really my parents?

Life

Creating new memories in an old city we visited. Looking at past photos remiscing on what we had. I'm broken. So so broken. I don't know how you are doing. I don't know if you're okay. I'm no longer in your life. It's heart breaking. I miss you. 

Breakup

I need to keep reminding myself that I'm still young and making changes in my life can have long lasting benefits, and I haven't missed that much 

Tired of pretending that everything is okay 

Exhausted

Hey any one for talking 
I wish I could have someone to talk I feel so lonely and miserable

Hey 
I wanna tell something 
I can't really decide this myself 
I think i am gonna make a wrong choice.

You know from starting i am not fine.

We were twins but not close. I and she had a completley different lifes.
I am her brother,i am 17 minutes older than her.

Our biological has given up on us.
Till 5 years old we were raised in two different households but later we got shifted.
We came to same place 

But there we were not close.
We were sold to that place ,there are another two children like us there...
One is AA(boy) and other is BB(boy)

We were totally 4.
AA , BB, we two (my sister and me)

Well,i am very close with AA from beginning. 
BB got killed in middle and my sister ,she always used to stay apart .
She is not apart but we made it like that.
We were boys and she was a girl 
At that age ,in that environment when she was with us ,we used to get dragged too so we didn't became close to her.
We were molested,but more than me and AA ,she used to suffer more..

Like hell... maybe because she was a girl.

I didn't care much about her because she was never with us,i don't know she was my sister,and because of her attitude. 

We were together there for nearly 5 years. During those years,we found many things 
I and AA had a chance to go to school but we are afraid to tell anyone of it..because everytime we used to get more and more problems but later at our age of 10-11 ,toture was increasing because we are no longer children they need to use illegal drugs and alcohol to control us
But I and AA one day,killed one of them.
We are afraid, it happened accidentally. 
Our adopted families came there and took me and AA away...Later we told that my sister killed him..as our adopted parents told the same that members believed it and started to torture her .. she often used to get nervous issues and other issues. She used to get injured often.
Mean while ,AA and me were taken away from all these things.
But we often heard that she was taken back by our biological family.
Later we are growing up,AA and me developed deep feelings for other maybe because we are always there for each other.Although we were both boys we got into relation by age of 14.
I love him like hell...he love me more than that 


But later one day,AA and me changed school for his grades.there we met her.

I don't know how to react.
I know i am her twin brother.
Indeed ,she suffered very much because of my faults at childhood.
I went to her but she was still the same.

Her attitude...she is very strong, unique.she is like a leader,all used to talk about her.in all thoughts she was arrogant,pride, and also short tempered but for real she is hiding many emotions,she is fighting many things.she created that attitude to protect herself.she became oversmart.
She didn't go to school till 10 years age but by that time we met her again she was the topper of the school.
She used to give speeches and she is most favorite of teachers 

But later after few months she recognized us.

She used to give us warnings to stay away from her 
She really acted well 
But later i realized that the family that took her in ,biological family is most dangerous for her.
But now we are 15 .
I asked her many times to come to us but she never listened. 
She is getting molested daily by our own biological family. 
She is becoming weak daily
But now that family (biological) came to know that we came back so they are trying to again drag me and AA into this.
But we are not okay for that.
We decided to leave this state with our adopted families but i can't again leave her like before.
She is now getting more torture because she know us.
I want to stay but i can't. 
During past , we faced that ,that past still giving me nightmares but she ...
She is living in that ...
I can't let her go through that till she is independent.
She is telling she can handle and she can be okay but i know that although she is mentally strong ,her physical health is declining. 
At past,to escape myslef and AA i used to push her into problems,it is because of me that she couldn't escape any chance she got

But now...
I had my life the happiest with parents love and love from AA 
But she ...she was not cared or loved by even one person till now...she is all by herself. 
I had members who can give me their whole worlds for me and members who can control me during mental breakdowns but she need to calm herself down, she need to care for herself.
Even when in stage she can't wake up there is noone beside her.


Should i stay here with her or go on with my life for future?


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