I am feeling awesome.  Having a normal day today.       Hopefully you are having a great time too!!

Supportive

dont step back saying my children cant be affected by this!

Mental Health

Need a female friend 
Who can teach me about their sides of the world 


Confusion

I'm feeling too insecured. Nothing is or has been working well in life. I've been working hard to get a proper career, but I don't have any good money or open opportunities. Due to my insecurities I'm not getting into any relationship. Most of the time I'm judged and dominated for my payscale. Also, I'm always scared that I'm not good for anyone and I keep running away before I get into any relationship. Please help 🥺

Insecurity

Crying on my couch,
Restlessly, grasping for breath.
She rushed in and 
assured me 
she is going to fix it
And I made way for her to go.

When what I wanted was to say, 
"don't"
"I can resolve it"
"believe me"
"I'm not weak"
"I'm not incapable"
"I'm not afraid"
I am not a 
torn piece of cloth, 
in need of some 
patches and stitches sown,
To make it fit.

But as I moved to spell out the words, 
I felt my throat choking,
With overwhelming despair.
Dark numbness covered my chest,
And I sensed the dying pain.
So, I let it go;
In hopes, to do damage control.
If I was ever able to climb out alive.
I would shout my mind, 
And scream,

"Don't fix me"
"I am not a broken glass"
But, have faith,
"I am not a fragile snail,
Anyone can scare off 
into the shell."
I am a person who is hurting,
But can easily get back on her feet. 

I would assert,
"I'm armour 
strong enough 
to protect myself."

If I could pierce through the pain,
I would simply speak up.
Emptying my uneasy heart.

Frustration

07/12/2022.
Today, I enjoyed preparing dinner with my daddy. The way he taught me his old-school recipes.
Meanwhile, I note he was missing his old school days.
(bachelor's day). I just ask are u missing something, paa?
He simply replies I feel happy today spending my evening with you. (somewhere I was very emotional at that time).
We laughed and enjoyed drinking together after so long.
But I feel blessed to have such an open-minded parent in my life.

Mindfulness

I have a crush on a celebrity so much so that when i heard the rumors about him getting married i got so sad for a moment it fekt kike he betrayed me. Mind you this has never happened in my life before. I never had this much of a crush on anyone. Then i realized i had been involved too much. So i detached myself nd now i laugh at how stupid i felt when i heard he is getting married 🤣 nothing important just felt like sharing

Crush

I just saw a reel from now and me bout people telling their insecurities it was heart warming after knowing that you are not alone....tell us your insecurities 🌸

Now&Me Thinks

JUST VENTING OUT .YOU CAN SKIP READING IT 🤗
My childhood friend suddenly ghosted me for years, n its totally fine I understand people need space, cuz I also do that thing. 
We are friends past 16years, out of which 7years long distance. We never spoke everday (u know how its between old frndz..no need to speak everyday, but whenever we talk bond will remain the same). So once in a month we use to hav calls specially on our birthdays..we never miss each others bday.
She ghosted me in oct19, I felt its normal she will reach back whenever she feel like, then in feb its her bday.. I called> no  response 😬 I checked her no. with her current frndz, they gave me same numebr n said ya 'we just spoke to her on call u also try'.. 🙆but she didn't picked.
I was like.. alright its cool, lets not be clingy. From feb19; I called or drop her text once in a while _no response.
One night I randomly sawher online, textd her😂😂n finally she replied saying 'm his dad' it was 2am, frst 😂 her dad never take he phone, scnd He know me so welllll...I laughed at her excuse 🤭 it was kinda fun.
 I see her pics posted by her current friends n get her updates via them so its all cool I don't feel anything bad (bt ya I miss her on few days). So again this feb21 I tried calling> no response, n after that I didn't call cuz y to be clingy to someon.
Finally out of blue last month she texted me casually, we had a small chat (we never use to text_ cuz calling was or thing)🤭But I was soooo happy to see her back, none of us bought up past or said anything about ghosting period. So 2days we textd n then again no text call.
 see till here everything is going good n sorted!
What made me angry is😅😅 just now she texted saying 'oh now you are too busy to speak with me, y u ghosted, y u ignoring, blablab'
😂M heart was like.... comeon y u saying my lines, ain't m supposed to say all this to u. But (deep breaths) y to hurt her or say anything bad 😤😤😤 stillll its so frustrating when D one who did something bad come n put all blaim on you.
🤭🤭So instead of saying her anything bad or replying in anger 🤗m just venting out here.
Will surely ping her back when I will cool down cuz thats how friendships work. Never let heat of d moment destroy it.

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