I am feeling alot of wrath towards my biological father. For the disgusting man and person he is with lot of unresolved trauma and his actionsβ¦ anywaysβ¦I came from out. Was talking to mom in the drawing room, he came n shut his room door and I didnβt like it I got so annoyed for some reason.
Then despite the room being shut, I heard him lighting a cigarette with a lighter in the room. I got so pissed off, like really annoyed. That man is disgusting n inconsiderateβ¦my mom keeps on requesting him to shut the tvβ¦she needs to sleep n he keeps on watching tv n lighting cigarette there despite other shit he does
I felt so bad. His every action n thousand things are a trigger for me later on. I use lighter to light agarbatti, incense sticks n sage in my roomβ¦now I feel so triggered at the thought/sound of lighter with his addiction+inconsideration.
Feeling helpless at his addiction and annoying complacent habbits.
Hating it to the core. Will probably try my best to chill out for a bit and get to work. Amen
I hate addictions. Oh god
But gotto distract my mindβ¦I will :) may God bless me