I am exhausted. I have to do 4 - 5 observation tables + graphs of my physics file, research work for chemistry, biology practical videos to watch, study for board practicals, and the main exams.
My mother is such a difficult patient, who just came back and got diagnosed with SSD. My sister is not helpful. She should ideally be helping me as the elder sister, but she is so f*cking pampered. My father is an alcoholic who has no work-life balance and is now suffering. He wasn’t there for my mum’s treatment. My aunt is an ass who likes to withdraw from responsibilities. She is a negligent, irresponsible, selfish piece of shit. I had to work in the hospital when my mum slept and I wept. My board practicals start next week and I have no luck whatsoever. I will not lie anymore - yes I am lonely. My family is just for the name’s sake otherwise all are so selfish and individualistic.
what if I fail my boards in the midst of all this chaos? What if I fail my mental health?
I am exhausted. and i have no more words to express how my stress is overflowing.
it is so hard
gawd
sigh
Hang their for bit … You will able to pass this phase my girl
it is so hard. So hard.
What is easy? You can’t backout from living just because it’s hard,? Listen don’t think much just study and do care your mother . Don’t go to your sister asking for anything , cuz I think she is not so sensible person . Just try to handle both things cuz she is your mother it doesn’t matter whose wife or mother she is . But for you she is your mother
not helpful. This is more added pressure
Girl I know you are suffering my friends mother suffers from mental issue she handles home as her brother and father lives abroad . I always asked how you do this . Do you know what she said she is suffering if she thinks about that but she don’t have time to think this much she have to invest her all time in being productive
I don’t wanna give false info if you will think you can’t do it you won’t able but if you think little more you will able to my girl
You know I admire her for saying this and having the courage to go on, but please ask her to slow down, even for a minute would do wonders for her.
If she doesn’t understand this and goes on with her life as though “i need to be productive”, will eventually lead to burnout, then depression, then maybe even narcotics
She is not alone and she deserves to feel free
This is a very standard answer to give when one is in denial
No she won’t cuz she is dam mature . And I am always their for her . She handles whole crazy gang of girls who just create mess outside she just laugh and say it’s okay life can’t be wasted on depression dude . If you have time to waste on thinking you can just use it to pamper yourself
Alright fine, if you say so.
But even the strongest and the most mature need help.
Maybe you just can’t see it
This conversation led to nothing useful
Because it feels as though you are trying to disvalidate my trauma.
Not everyone is as strong as your little friend, or mature.
So this generalisation, and commenting that “if you have time to lean, you have time to clean” doesn’t work on all
You are right I was trying to tell you just you can do it if don’t relate it I am sorry good night
Good night
