 I am at the end of the cliff or slowly walking there and I don’t know am I gonna go back or jump. Am I ready to not to be able to breathe and not to try to go up to the surface of the water? Being all alone feels like stopping where you are. Like everyone left you and moved on, walked away but you stayed where you are. So at least moving from where I am is going to the end of the cliff for me. 

3am Thoughts

wow everything just feels like a bit of a blur

Anxiety

Just re-watched La La Land and I think it was best for both of them to let go of the love for their career.

WARNING this has spoilers for the movie 'Spanglish'

Flor doesn't end up with Adam Sandler's character? Wtf? It's heartbreaking! Does anyone out there prefer the philosophical endings to the happy ones?

Life

I've been feeling nothing lately....it might sound weird but yeah been through alottt for past few months that I've forgotten to feel anything like nothing saddens me anymore...a person who had mattered to me alot left without any specific reason and I didn't felt as much hurt as I thought I could feel if he left me...I just accepted it and moving on with my life but still I feel something holding me back...like I'm stuck...nothing excites me anymore...I'm just living my life as my routine and it just passes by...and talking to new people just stress me out...everyone wants someone in their life...someone who'll listen to them...who'll be their strength or motivate them...I n my life I also had found a person but now everything has changed and he's no longer here...so I no longer desire to be with anyone anymore...the only person I can feel comfortable with is myself...I don't think I can be able to love or anything...because the only thing that I know is to Love myself...yeah soundsSelfish....but the only person you can rely on is yourself...so don't choose anyone over you...always choose yourself and try to make yourself happy...because people will leave you sooner or later...I started to write this because I just wanted to vent...and idk if someone will read it or not...but if you're then I thank you from my heart for reading it....God bless...😃

I have been feeling soo stressed and exhausted lately. Am I supposed to deal with family drama or should I take time to deal with my educator who is confused himself or should I try and focus on internship opportunities or should I deal with the anxieties that come with being a 20 year old. Like what do I do. 
I know I should probably try to relax but I feel like I don't know how to do that anymore. I have gone through and am going through enough to know that I probably need a therapist to work through certain issues. But I cant do that cause I stay with my parents and they aren't exactly that kind to understand the importance of mental health.  How do I take things one step at a time when I don't have the peace(physically and emotionally) to do the first thing? 
At the same time, I feel guilty about having what feels trivial when people in places like Afghanistan are going through literal hell right now. 
I am unable to concentrate on anything. My mind is a mishmash of everything and nothing all at once and I can't get myself to feel anything positive.

Mental Wellbeing

How depression feels like is so difficult to put into words because it's a spectrum somedays I feel so bubbly and Jolly that I want to to save the world but the other days I do not have the courage to get out of the bed and even make a toast for myself it so difficult to do college knowing how depression feels like because you are constantly reminded of what you are and how incapable you are Reason to everyone else it so difficult to just be yourself because you are constantly doubting yourself because that how depression feels like, to not know who you are, to not know what you want, to not know who you want to be and do not know if the world around you is real or if this is the world you have created in your head because it happened with me in the past that I have thought the world is nice but it was just in my head and the world was really Cruel and this is how depression feels like and I don't know if I am doing justice while putting it your but I want everyone to know that it's difficult and that if there's any one else like me that you are not alone and just has the hope that it get it gets better???That was short but I am really just hoping that it does get better because I do not know how to continue like this???


Depression

I just want to belong somewhere 

Disorders

I am feeling very down lately, I feel like my life has no meaning. 
I belong to a desi family and the pressure of getting married is eating me alive 💔. Some times I feel like just running away from my family but then I realize I will be nothing without them.

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