I am a very toxic personβ¦what should i do?
Hey you are not toxic. I feel so because people around you are toxic and they made you feel you the toxic one
I m the villainβ¦he is good in my imaginary fictional worldβ¦but in real such a horrible guyβ¦
In such case you should distance yourself from himβ¦
He is horrible guy in real.
So why are you making yourself suffer more.
I am tryingβ¦m really tryingβ¦i hvnt called him for long timeβ¦but thn if I see any Instagram reel couple goalβ¦m feeling likeβ¦i had something goodβ¦nd I just spoiled itπbut now I doubt if I really had something or it was just an need of having somone
It surely takes time.
I hope you feel good soon.π₯Ίπ€
What I really wantβ¦i wanna remove that memoryβ¦his memory from my brainβ¦if there is any operation or something possibleβ¦i really wanna do itβ¦i was ncr this kinda obsessed on anyoneβ¦but nowβ¦i feel likeβ¦i donβt even know myself
That good that you yourself are willing to move on. But try to understand we cannot do any process to delete memories. Eventually with time they will bother you less.
After my first relationshipβ¦u ll nvr blivβ¦i used to think that I had it allβ¦i will nvr get into any relationship crapβ¦now here I m againβ¦in the same crap looking for my self respect
See being in relationship is not at all bad, but being in relationship with wrong person makes this whole experience worst.
So, still you will have a perfect relationship, but not with him. Maybe someone who cares for you.
I saw in some comments, you are telling about how he is not responding to your calls etc.
Ask yourself that do you deserve a guy who is not even ready to talk to you? Who has no time to you?.
No dear you deserve someone who is cary for you, who cannot let a day go without talking to to someone who values your presence and care for you.
You will surely get the perfect one soon, vut for that you will have to let the wrong person go. So that you make space for perfect person.
Everyday I am convincing myself and I hv made a note of whatβs wrong with that guyβ¦but when I recall our time together again m calling or msgng even though I know whatβs he gonna reply to meβ¦m crazyβ¦m so overwhelmed that I really wanted to talk it outβ¦cz u know when person knows the wrong thing and still do itβ¦i m that stupid crazyyyy personππ
How old are you?? What do you do?
Swats @swats
If I sayβ¦u ll kick meβ¦πππm 26β¦a manager in a finance companyβ¦nd another crisis also m going through with my careerβ¦i donβt know why the hell I want to do something I likeβ¦so for that reason m searching for new jobβ¦cz this current job I donβt like at allβ¦yeah hence proved m crazy
I am 27β¦
Its been a year i brokeup.
This whole year was disaster for me. But i must say i am in alot Better situation than i was.
So have faith on yourself. Eventually it will be okay. Try to focus on your work. Look after your body, do some exercises and meditation.
Try to go out with friends around you. Spend rime with them. Keep yourself busy.
See, this recovery will definitely take time, you just have to make this journey comfortable one
Swats @swats
I guess soβ¦though now a days m doing meditationβ¦just to control myselfβ¦why why I end up in this pathetic situation m thinking tbhβ¦but thank u dear for your pep talkβ¦i really needed it
You can try guided meditation to calm down right before you go to sleep.
Always there for you.
Sending virtual hugs π€
I will try it for sureβ¦thank you for ur timeβ¦u r a saviorβ¦sending virtual π€
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Hey
Hope you are doing well
I am same anon.
I got some good list of podcast that might help you to move on.
Would you like to connect 8n Dm?
It is good that you realised it takes real guys to accept you toxic.
Identify what kinda toxic behaviour you showing and then the reason and then try avoiding those stimulus.
I donβt knowβ¦i am a person who wants ans to my qnsβ¦nd he just go for agree to disagreeβ¦nd I end up with assumptions cz I donβt know what he thinksβ¦
Are you toxic or are you an overthinker
I am over thinker for sureβ¦toxic cz even though I know that thingβ¦that feeling is costing my peaceβ¦still m doing it again and again after knowing that m doing wrongβ¦m unable to control myself
May be because you just hd a recent breakup give yourself sometime donβt think too much
I was in relation for only 6monthsβ¦nd its been already 6months of my brkupβ¦nd itβs not even my first relationshipβ¦i donβt know why m feeling too patheticβ¦like I used to think that m a lonerβ¦now I m feeling likeβ¦i just donβt know what I want anymore
Talk to someone interesting like me πππ
On a genuine note find someone you can be with, who can treat you like you want to be, values you donβt treat him like a move on thing value him and also stick by him if he is sticking by you. Also if you are young you can for the time being focus on your self or your career
U know thank u for listeningβ¦i think all I wanted someone to listen wat m going throughβ¦i really need to get out of this fictional boyfriendβ¦its all bcz of romantic novelsβ¦moviesβ¦it has crapped my mind for sure
You can any time ping to let out things
I didnβt understand fictional boyfriend thing ???
U know when u spend good time with someone and feel like he is ur knightβ¦but its all bullshitβ¦there is no happily ever after
Donβt go for happily ever after
Why not just live for just being happy today ??? And eventually things will fall in place if it has to.
Thatβs very unpredictableβ¦if I donβt know future with particular person why would I invest my timeβ¦but I think u r rightβ¦
That is what I want form you to not to be so much invested in a person that you start depending upon him for your happiness and when he leaves you turn toxic to yourself and even empty
I was invested upon someone once and now am like really empty really empty.
That makes sense actuallyβ¦
I know how it feels to be empty and then you crave to be heard and you have no one then you go back to that one person whom you lost yourself respect to I have been there done that and know it feels yukkkk from inside but you got no choice because you were too dependent on that person
I can totally relate to itβ¦but m ending myself how come I got close in 6months that also in a long distance relationshipβ¦real stupidity
Damn i also got close in long distance online thing ππππ
I waited for that girl for 2.5 years to acknowledge me
No noβ¦i was not in online relationshipβ¦but m feeling sorry for uβ¦u r wonderfulβ¦i wish for ur betterment and mine
Which state are you from ???
m in Hyderabad nowβ¦with my pathetic jobβ¦some good frndssβ¦nd u guyzzz
Few months ago when I lost my mom I met a girl here she was from hyderabad only and she was a superb person to talk too
What is your job ???
How do you say youβre toxic?
Did someone make you feel that way?
Guy is not even calling me after we broke upβ¦in a week if I call twice he nvr pick my call and if he does than give reasons like he is busy in work blah blahβ¦nd I am so stupidβ¦still m calling himβ¦msgng himβ¦m tired of my this behaviorβ¦m feeling toxicβ¦nt in a literal senseβ¦but this love is haunting me nowβ¦its likeβ¦he is good in my memories but it in reality
Yeah m crazyyy obsessed person killing my own self respect for attentionππππ
I wanna defend myselfβ¦but u r saying truthβ¦this is the ugly truth
Guyzzz m really grateful for your insightsβ¦thank you for listening and respondingβ¦π