I am a very toxic personโฆwhat should i do?
Hey you are not toxic. I feel so because people around you are toxic and they made you feel you the toxic one
I m the villainโฆhe is good in my imaginary fictional worldโฆbut in real such a horrible guyโฆ
In such case you should distance yourself from himโฆ
He is horrible guy in real.
So why are you making yourself suffer more.
I am tryingโฆm really tryingโฆi hvnt called him for long timeโฆbut thn if I see any Instagram reel couple goalโฆm feeling likeโฆi had something goodโฆnd I just spoiled it๐ญbut now I doubt if I really had something or it was just an need of having somone
It surely takes time.
I hope you feel good soon.๐ฅบ๐ค
What I really wantโฆi wanna remove that memoryโฆhis memory from my brainโฆif there is any operation or something possibleโฆi really wanna do itโฆi was ncr this kinda obsessed on anyoneโฆbut nowโฆi feel likeโฆi donโt even know myself
That good that you yourself are willing to move on. But try to understand we cannot do any process to delete memories. Eventually with time they will bother you less.
After my first relationshipโฆu ll nvr blivโฆi used to think that I had it allโฆi will nvr get into any relationship crapโฆnow here I m againโฆin the same crap looking for my self respect
See being in relationship is not at all bad, but being in relationship with wrong person makes this whole experience worst.
So, still you will have a perfect relationship, but not with him. Maybe someone who cares for you.
I saw in some comments, you are telling about how he is not responding to your calls etc.
Ask yourself that do you deserve a guy who is not even ready to talk to you? Who has no time to you?.
No dear you deserve someone who is cary for you, who cannot let a day go without talking to to someone who values your presence and care for you.
You will surely get the perfect one soon, vut for that you will have to let the wrong person go. So that you make space for perfect person.
Everyday I am convincing myself and I hv made a note of whatโs wrong with that guyโฆbut when I recall our time together again m calling or msgng even though I know whatโs he gonna reply to meโฆm crazyโฆm so overwhelmed that I really wanted to talk it outโฆcz u know when person knows the wrong thing and still do itโฆi m that stupid crazyyyy person๐๐
How old are you?? What do you do?
Swats @swats
If I sayโฆu ll kick meโฆ๐๐๐m 26โฆa manager in a finance companyโฆnd another crisis also m going through with my careerโฆi donโt know why the hell I want to do something I likeโฆso for that reason m searching for new jobโฆcz this current job I donโt like at allโฆyeah hence proved m crazy
I am 27โฆ
Its been a year i brokeup.
This whole year was disaster for me. But i must say i am in alot Better situation than i was.
So have faith on yourself. Eventually it will be okay. Try to focus on your work. Look after your body, do some exercises and meditation.
Try to go out with friends around you. Spend rime with them. Keep yourself busy.
See, this recovery will definitely take time, you just have to make this journey comfortable one
Swats @swats
I guess soโฆthough now a days m doing meditationโฆjust to control myselfโฆwhy why I end up in this pathetic situation m thinking tbhโฆbut thank u dear for your pep talkโฆi really needed it
You can try guided meditation to calm down right before you go to sleep.
Always there for you.
Sending virtual hugs ๐ค
I will try it for sureโฆthank you for ur timeโฆu r a saviorโฆsending virtual ๐ค
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Hey
Hope you are doing well
I am same anon.
I got some good list of podcast that might help you to move on.
Would you like to connect 8n Dm?
It is good that you realised it takes real guys to accept you toxic.
Identify what kinda toxic behaviour you showing and then the reason and then try avoiding those stimulus.
I donโt knowโฆi am a person who wants ans to my qnsโฆnd he just go for agree to disagreeโฆnd I end up with assumptions cz I donโt know what he thinksโฆ
Are you toxic or are you an overthinker
I am over thinker for sureโฆtoxic cz even though I know that thingโฆthat feeling is costing my peaceโฆstill m doing it again and again after knowing that m doing wrongโฆm unable to control myself
May be because you just hd a recent breakup give yourself sometime donโt think too much
I was in relation for only 6monthsโฆnd its been already 6months of my brkupโฆnd itโs not even my first relationshipโฆi donโt know why m feeling too patheticโฆlike I used to think that m a lonerโฆnow I m feeling likeโฆi just donโt know what I want anymore
Talk to someone interesting like me ๐๐๐
On a genuine note find someone you can be with, who can treat you like you want to be, values you donโt treat him like a move on thing value him and also stick by him if he is sticking by you. Also if you are young you can for the time being focus on your self or your career
U know thank u for listeningโฆi think all I wanted someone to listen wat m going throughโฆi really need to get out of this fictional boyfriendโฆits all bcz of romantic novelsโฆmoviesโฆit has crapped my mind for sure
You can any time ping to let out things
I didnโt understand fictional boyfriend thing ???
U know when u spend good time with someone and feel like he is ur knightโฆbut its all bullshitโฆthere is no happily ever after
Donโt go for happily ever after
Why not just live for just being happy today ??? And eventually things will fall in place if it has to.
Thatโs very unpredictableโฆif I donโt know future with particular person why would I invest my timeโฆbut I think u r rightโฆ
That is what I want form you to not to be so much invested in a person that you start depending upon him for your happiness and when he leaves you turn toxic to yourself and even empty
I was invested upon someone once and now am like really empty really empty.
That makes sense actuallyโฆ
I know how it feels to be empty and then you crave to be heard and you have no one then you go back to that one person whom you lost yourself respect to I have been there done that and know it feels yukkkk from inside but you got no choice because you were too dependent on that person
I can totally relate to itโฆbut m ending myself how come I got close in 6months that also in a long distance relationshipโฆreal stupidity
Damn i also got close in long distance online thing ๐๐๐๐
I waited for that girl for 2.5 years to acknowledge me
No noโฆi was not in online relationshipโฆbut m feeling sorry for uโฆu r wonderfulโฆi wish for ur betterment and mine
Which state are you from ???
m in Hyderabad nowโฆwith my pathetic jobโฆsome good frndssโฆnd u guyzzz
Few months ago when I lost my mom I met a girl here she was from hyderabad only and she was a superb person to talk too
What is your job ???
How do you say youโre toxic?
Did someone make you feel that way?
Guy is not even calling me after we broke upโฆin a week if I call twice he nvr pick my call and if he does than give reasons like he is busy in work blah blahโฆnd I am so stupidโฆstill m calling himโฆmsgng himโฆm tired of my this behaviorโฆm feeling toxicโฆnt in a literal senseโฆbut this love is haunting me nowโฆits likeโฆhe is good in my memories but it in reality
Yeah m crazyyy obsessed person killing my own self respect for attention๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
I wanna defend myselfโฆbut u r saying truthโฆthis is the ugly truth
Guyzzz m really grateful for your insightsโฆthank you for listening and respondingโฆ๐
