I am a very bad person .  .
Can i please talk to someone ? 
I want to pour my heart out. 

I had this gf who was beautiful,innocent and i loved her a lot(once i walked to her on foot to say hi,stood outside her office for to pick her up). And i fell in love with her in  first sight . But she had this male bffs(3-4 i know off)  who i had issue with (jealousy ofcourse) so i used to tell her to tell them about me but she never did tell them. And i had issue she being around them. We really enjoyed each others company though but she seemed too busy we talked on phone but hardly met(once we did not meet me for staright 3 months and everyday i was dying for her time). So i raised issues about concerning things but see seemed to cared but never did anything so we ended up fighting. I also had this problem that when i got annoyed i blocked her to let myself cool down. And when i cooled down i tried to make her understand what made me hurt. One day she ended up crying saying i have never like this for anyone before and i will marry you “you are the one” .She listened but it was the same thing. She didnt have time for me so i thought i am too demanding so i joined basketball class to keep myself  busy during evening which was my lonely feeling time. And i also told her the reason why i joined the basketball class but same whenever i requested to meet me she canceled or not made any efforts when i called her she would not pick up or say call you later and wont call back. But i never gave up on her cos of hope and love. 
Finally she came to dump me after an argument and i was explaining her that i felt bad about it . She dumped me saying i also used to block her over small issues and i dont love you anymore.
 

I just have one thing to say. YOU DESERVE BETTER. 

You should have never told her why you joined the basketball classes. She should not have known. After knowing all she could feel was pity for you. You must have gotten angry that even after knowing she isn't acting up, am I right.

Yeah i was … may be she felt pity .. but i thouhgt she is understanding and will atleast feel that this guy putting so much effort so she would do it too. 

I accepted that i blocked her intially but i tried to put in efforts to correct those mistakes! I blocked her because even after u trying to prove your point they give u excuses so i got frustrated of explaining myself and felt like blocking. But i realised that it may be too extreme so i try to explain her from calm situation hoping she will understand this time.

Compassion

I have an issue and am seriously looking for genuine solutions/suggestions..... 
I have an emotional weakness wherein I cannot run away permanently or do suicide or something because I had tendency to think about what will be it's repercussions on my parents /family. I have gone through enough childhood trauma to become a cold blooded person, and enough heartbroken to be stone hearted... But somehow I live ... Dealing with career issues , family issues, heartbreak everything has contributed in making a cold emotionless person.... Even if I pray , I pray for my family... Don't want anything for myself...but sometimes I do feel that Living is also a weakness...

Depression

How Are you feeling today?? 

Binge Eating

hello...i was just feeling lonely today so decided to come here.my parents are out of town for a week i lost my bsf today too i hv recently shifted to a new city and i dont hv many frnds i just wanted someone  to share my feelings with. Anyone available? 

Anxiety

Anyone interested in talk about Nature

Travel

Kindda feels..... well not kindda, i always get scared when i feel like am getting attached to a frnd of my opposite gender due to some past incidents nd traumas.  I cant even enjoy that company because am scared of getting attached again nd bieng possesive. So i find it hard to manage frndship with females. DOES ANYONE HAS A SOLUTION 😐

I hate my family. My parents are fighting all the time, my father does not respect my mother and I am sick of this. My mom just hates me and she thinks I never care for her, but I try to make her happy and do so much for her which is ignored. I cry myself to sleep almost every night and as we are not so financially strong our life turns more difficult. My mom and dad they both say rude things m
without seeing our feelings and everything that I do for them. I hate my life right now I just want us to stay happy.. 

Misunderstanding

Ideal boyfriend?

3am Thoughts

There is a sudden surge of gloominess. It’s like I can’t stay happy for too long. Something or the other will always ruin my happiness; I am scared of being happy, so I never am. There is a constant cacophony of voices whispering in my ears telling me that there is something rotten inside of me and I find it near impossible to drown them out. I just hate myself so much. I don’t want to but I do. I also discovered that I have borderline personality disorder, so self hate comes from there. I don’t know how to live in this world, it’s like I don’t belong here. I have many people to talk to but I think I am just irritating them with my stuffs. There is a dear friend of mine, who is like my sister. I love her so much and not sure if she does to. She tells me she loves me but her actions says otherwise. She has inflicted so much pain on me, she is unaware of that and I don’t have enough courage to tell her this. I want her to say goodbye because I lack the courage to do it myself. I am drowning. I need a closure and no matter what I do, I don’t have so much guts to confront her. At this point, I think no one loves me, no one loves enough. I never their first priority. They only know I exist when someone is not there for them. I am not good at studies or anything. I am lost. I don’t even have me because I hate myself so much. I can’t stop asking myself why I hate myself so much. It just hurts. There is no solution to my problem. Seems like suffering is the only option. I need to embrace this pain, it is the only thing which won’t leave me. 

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