I am a lil dark in color and in my school no one teases me about it. Everyone has good connection with me but in my house my mother always taunts me on my color. She is embarrassed of me if she takes me anywhere. It really breaks my heart

I love her but sometimes it really hurts😭

Anxiety

My mom needs me and I really wanna go do other stuff but she needs me and I don't know what to do. like my whole time I spend it with her and I need to do other stuff but can't leave her alone 

Family

Love is different from attraction or romantic feelings or some other emotions you feel towards other person.. we often get confused such feelings as love.. Being in a relationship doesn't mean that you are in love with that person..

Love is not limited to couples.. Parents love their children Unconditionally regardless their color features characters etc.. We humans are capable to love other beings in such a way..

When your truly love someone you wish them happiness wherever they are .. with whomever they are.. or how far they are..

Love

Letting off few unnecessary things is damn hard 
These statistics ..... 

3am Thoughts

I am feeling very worthless today I did so much for my so called freind and infact lost my smile ,after that they showed me true colours of themselves I am not able to move on from it I am thinking I should as a person but I do not want to .I want to be me as like I was always .People are snake.I do not know in life I will be able to get genuine people or the people that I can call them genuinely my freind I do not believe in friendship anymore too I want to heal my self but I do not know how I should do this .

So I had sex recently, and I used protection,and I would say my brain is really weird cause,I am still worried that I could end up pregnant, even though there was no climaxing on both ends, I know most people would find this super super funny(so do my friends) but I am so so so tensed like I can't sleep at night, and my period gets delayed further with stress, I hate this oh god 

Sexual Health

I need some friends that are from New Zealand? Anyone wanna connect? 

Friends

I feel really unmotivated during classes. My professor doesn't give any clear explanations concerning our tasks, so the entire class is lost and confused about what we have to do. It makes me stressed because I can't get in a working mood since classes are online and I feel bad because I can't find the strenght to make an effort. I see that most of my classmates are still trying to work and I keep comparing myself to that and feeling guilty of not doing the same. On the other side, my insecurities have been very persistent recently and it doesnt help me focus. I keep overthinking. At the end of the day, I found myself with nothing productive done. I just want to cry and not feel anything. 
I feel alone because I can't find the courage to talk about my problems to my parents or my friends. I just don't feel like talking to them because I always feel like an outcast and that we're not close enough to talk about this kind of stuff.

Anyways does anyone have a tip on how to get back on my feet or to find the courage to start talking to my parents?

Good evening jaipur
Happy chhoti Diwali 🌆 

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