I am a girl but I want a girlfriend desperately. I used to bark back when the bird in the neighbourhood singing. But yesterday it stop to sing. It keeps me wondering why the bird find someone while I still alone.

hahaha, that's so amusing and endearing to think about 😄maybe the bird just migrated 🤷
you'll get your girl one day!! ❤️

Relationships

I'm getting my 12th grade results tomorrow. I'm in so much pressure idk what to do. I JUST WANT TO DIE NOW. If I get a bad grade I will disappoint everyone in my life. Especially my dad, and no one will like me. I won't even like myself. Please help. I just want to die.

Suicidal Ideation

I'm kind of in a predicament. I don't understand what is wrong with me. Or if I'm completely emotionless. I don't value any relationship as I should and when it ends I think about how right I was about it since the beginning. Is anyone else going through the same? 

Life

Is there anyone to talk ?


Breakup

Please just read this and give your opinion
So tomorrow is my friend's birthday so she has invited us all( we're a group of 9) to her birthday party to a luxury resort
Now being very honest we're not that rich that someday when my birthday comes I can invite my friends to a resort and all so I'm not going and all the people in my group are damn rich
Like for the surprise party also they decided to gift her like 17 things because she's turning 17 and that only cost around 2500 
Like first we decided to celebrate her birthday like after school in a ground nearby with like a surprise party but then birthday girl called me now and told me about the party 
My parents told me No
I understand but now I just feel excluded from the group
Like last week they went to restaurant to eat..I didn't go because that would just cost soo high for one person in that we would eat whole family..then they meet up at a friend's house for group study but I didn't go because If I go I'll have to also invite them someday and I live in joint family so my mom wouldn't allow
They all time discuss about how they enjoyed and all and I just feel sad
I feel left out guys
Just don't know what to do


FOMO

Maybe this world is other planets hell ..........

3am Thoughts

These periods suckssss😒
I can create a whole park with my mood swings 😑

Period

My parent's marriage (DV, disagreements, and I rarely saw them talking to each other affectionately) gave me a lifelong trauma about relationships and I don't see myself getting married or be in a relationship. Being around people gives me anxiety and I feel much more peaceful when I'm alone. 

Growing Up

I'M  Tired and Lonely , 
I feel like I'm a disappointment to my parents . Not able to cope up with studies . 
Frankly, not feeling to study at all . Been depressed lately. The only thing I do is hurt my parents and loved ones  . All they want me is to study .  Either u are studious or hottest person .  I'm always hanging in the middle . People whom I care ab the most  are either toxic or they just walk out of my life .  I always overthink and blame myself . I have 0 motivation and no positivity . I envy all those people who believe in 'SELF LOVE' . I always end up thinking is it even worth staying alive ? I just dream big and wait for an opportunity for me to shine  . I know that I should work on myself but nothings' helping me .  I'm better off dead then no one would end up regretting or being hurt permanent  ,its only temporary . Death  would fade away with time . I would keep feeling low and guilty If I hurt them . Wouldn't it be a lot easier for me and my people to face a temporary pain when I'm not alive anymore  than permanently scarring them and myself  being alive ? 
Taken tests where the results are I'm depressed .  I keep thinking to myself .....
Am I really depressed ? I mean people go through much more  and bare with it . 
People  expect allot from me but I am far from reaching their expectation .  
I was always kind to people around me but I end up getting hurt always . I pretended to be cold person and not give a damn  ( not mean ) but I felt bad for them . Parents really thought that if they show me my downs then I might learn how to tackle them  instead I keep feeling low and low . I have learnt how to ignore those mean words but it keeps getting worse and worse .  My mom  is going through a lot . There's still allot of family problems  . 

WHAT WILL ME STAYING ALIVE WILL DO ANY BETTER ... 
I'M TIRED OF ALL OF THIS  EMPTINESS  (there's still more )  
 I'm sorry for being such a gloomy person . SORRY SORRY SORRY . 
  I WANNA END ALL OF IT , ALL OF IT !
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