I am a Boy with a different mindset ,actually being an introvert. I want to hangout with friends and enjoy with them. But that was not allowed in my home. I used to be alone and i am a single child to my parents .I was not criticizing them but they care for me a lot. But unfortunately, I grown up having sex with my cousins who were of nearly same age as mine . This made to move further by hiding the thing, I was doing infront of parents and peers. I used to meet people for searching fun and ending up with sex even being an introvert . But when I came to my collage, I mean teenage I found a guy also sexually connected with me , who was having similar thoughts and similar thinking ability. I started loving him after we met and we hangout we text each other. I have gained feelings on him like love in deep. But I don’t want that feeling or love which ruins our bonding and sometimes I feel like we should be together forever. I love him but it should be as a friend and I was not against LGBTQ but we are not such courageous to make our voice raise we been tied to our parents words. We raised in such a country where middle aged citizens are not aware of gay relationship. These days I was not sexually attracted to him but I can find something that drags me into his thoughts. I have even discussed this thing with him and we came into such a decision that we should be good friends rather than getting married or stepping into LGBTQ and we cannot do that because we raised in a way that we cannot raise a voice and for the first time I am feeling so sad that I been an introvert where I cannot express anything😔. We both have to continue our studies and achieve our goals to take care of our families and our parents cannot take this thing we been sexually attracted and they won’t accept us to marry too. And I respect LGBTQ a lot where we cannot step into it. But we wanna be like boy’s leaving this thing. I wish I could know an answer about how can we cope up with this feeling and get back to normal being good friends because I cannot leave him or ignore him forever. Hope I can get a solution or any idea to get rid of this that may depend on our mindset but I need a clarity about this.
See my advice might be a little bold one for you but believe me we get life for one time in our life and i got a advice from someone that never lose your hope in your true love it won’t be right believe me you will regret later on i don’t know u r from which country so i can’t suggest much but who said that you have to both come out to your parents you are great at hiding things I think you can date him secretly if he wants rest your decision just remember we get live our life once do not compromise when it comes to love
