I am a 24Y old female, my height is 5’3 and I have always been overweight. No matter what or how much I do, I am never able to weigh less than 75kgs. Last year, things got so bad, I was at my heaviest at 82kgs and my waist was at 42 inches. I started dieting and was making good progress till I got sick of it. I lost close to 7kgs and 5 inches after which I stopped the diet. I started working out, started to feel good. I wasn’t losing weight but I did lose 1 or 2 more inches off my waist. I was fine with it because I looked and felt better.
Cut to today. I am moving abroad in 12 days and my gym membership has ended. I decided to not go because it won’t have made sense and I have a lot to do as well. My weight keeps oscillating between 75.5 and 77 kgs, I haven’t checked my inches though but I have started to fear the gain again. I am so so scared that I would start to look like how I looked in 2020-21. Whatever I eat makes me feel so guilty and I feel like I should suppress my appetite even though I know that’s worse. I don’t even know how to deal with this constant fear and judgement. I am somehow associating my worth on my physical appearance which is bad I know. I hate looking at myself in the mirror especially my arms and belly.
Just try to love yourself
Thank you for being so kind
varun singhal @monsieur
Why dont you join the gym again in abroad. You are not going to gain much weight in 12 days just have a little control on what you eat and drinks lots of water. And yes try to love your body.
Yes, I will try to make full use of the resources
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