I always say  "it is what it is" but deep down I wish shit was different...

I was talking about things with my family. 

Your right it can. My family was ruining me. Therefore I moved a thousand miles away from them(literally), and now I'm healing :))

Well shit can be different if you can be different (which you can be) 

3am Thoughts

i have literally nothing to do all day long and i am like this for ever no friends no cousins no one to go out with just me and my phone forever can someone suggest me how to make friends?

Friends

 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝

What we see is what we think,
So to think good you have to seek good...

Quotes

If you've got someone who checks up on you, wants to know if you're okay 
Wants to hear if you're going through something, then 
you're blessed. Treasure them. 💐

Why this world take lonely people so granted they use them as they are not human but a toy to play 

Frustration

life. I play out scenarios in my head- of breaking up with him, of meeting someone new. For now i told him i'm trying to move past it. But it sort of felt like the last nail in the coffin. I don't know how to tell him this. I don't want to regret this decision later. Oh and another thing-i'm diabetic and i don't think i'm gonna ever find someone to marry. I think it's partly why i'm staying. But i do love him. and i miss him when i try to be without him. And somehow i always end up forgiving him. Please help

Relationships

If only i could be there for you
Hey S You know
I would have been with you
As much as i could get to 
Only you on my mind 
Everyday when i wake up and rhyme
No words left to try
I dont know how much would you 
Still make me defy
I had too much hatred in my life
Being someone who defies 
The rules made by society 
But you were someone 
Who accepted me and made me smile,
Getting to know the person you're
Trust me I'm more than happy and alive
You wouldn't know this
But to me you feel like a blessing 
So much so that i could feel you
Being someone who was sent to me,
No wonder your vibes feel so peaceful to me
I thought you were just some random girl at first
Like i have been to people always lonely
But now i have started to feel like 
You're the one for me
As you make me sometimes so happy,
But here you keep teasing me like
This is what makes you happy
But if this is what really does
I don't mind being on them for hours
If only i get to see a smile 
On your lips knowing I'm the reason, behind it.

So these last few lines 
Let me remind you again 
How much you matter to me
Last night i saw a dream 
Which you weren't in,
But when i woke up 
And fall out of the bed
You were the one 
I wish i could get to fall with.
#S

Crush

Having everything still feeling damn lonely and empty inside... 

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