I always feel so alone. No one is ever there for me. I constantly cry alone in my car, room, restroom. I keep fighting with myself to want to keep my life. How can I just end my life simply with no one in the way & no regrets. I’m so hopeless, I hate my life and every aspect of it. I hate myself mostly, i wish I didn’t exist.
The worst part of depression is that it makes you feel so alone, but you are not there’s always someone there for you whether that be family, friend, online or mental health charities. Even at your lowest moments when it feels so hopeless there is always hope! You have to start by making a change, go to the doctors let them know this is how you feel. When I feel low I force myself with every ounce of energy to go for a walk or exercise and it slowly lifts that cloud. It gets better I promise!!
Thank u for taking the time to even respond, I’m actually going for a walk. Hopefully I feel a bit better after.
It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to feel alone. All of this says you aren’t merely existing but you are living, that you are a person with emotions. Imagine being indifferent to everything. That’s a dark pit from where nothing can be seen. You realise that you are feeling sad. Which means you have control over your emotions. Try to do things that take the least effort. Like drinking a glass of water. Or taking deep breaths. Or dreaming of happy dreams. That won’t cost you anything. But you’ll start feeling good. Not the euphoria good. But good enough to keep aside the thoughts of being sad/unhappy even if for a moment. Try doing things that take less than 2 minutes to complete. Like one squat or writing one sentence. You can start small and grow big from there.
Everyone goes through the emotions sad/happy. Don’t victimise yourself into thinking you’re the only person to suffer. Others have found a way around it. You too need to find a way around it. Life is magical. Thoughts and emotions are fleeting. Don’t think of ending your life just coz you experienced a silly thought/a sad emotion. Life is much more than that. It may not be a path of roses but it isn’t a path laden with thorns either.
Have hope and have faith. You are a miracle. Remember that. Best wishes.