Cutie🥰 @tough_scribbles
I always choose to select the wrong guys or maybe do I attract wrong guys … narsisst, emotionally unavailable, unhealed. Like why always? There was this one guy who I felt was treating me better than my past nd he never spoke to me about who is he, idk his real name, I know ntg about him. Even if I ask he doesn’t tell me he jokes around or changes the topic completly… so now I need to cut him off too bcz Its getting scary and I already hanged out with him twice 🤷♀️. I feel upset nd shit but uea.
Hangout? Without knowing
Cutie🥰 @tough_scribbles
Yes Ik his short name but he never told me his real name even if I ask he jokes and diverts the topic🤦♀️
Yes bro I am Indian and never been put with guys before
See I never dated or met anyone in my life . I was in a relationship in my high school and it was toxic and drained me mentally nd emotionally causing depression nd axiety.
After that I liked another guy nd he was my college senior, then I realized he doesnt treat me right and he is not right guy for me. So I cut him off.
Then couple of months back I found this guy on a dating app and he suddenly talking to me everyday jokes nd all that he askee me to meet once … I felt I matched with his vibe but meeting was a great deal but after sometimes I did agree, the first meet was fun and he kissed me (it was my 1st kiss) I wasn’t even uncomfortable . His name was Sandy on the app and when I asked he said his name was Sandeep but when ever I asked about his past or anything he never said , Idk his full name either … I only know he doesnt have a very good relationship with his dad. He said he had a whole in his heart and later got it stiched. Doesn’t have a social media account at all, he used to but now doesn’t. He had youtube channel but he hated ppl and deleted his channel. He calls me every evening. The 2nd time when I met him and when he was dropping me back he started crying. He said ‘I love you’ just after 1st meet I guess. I don’t even know is he a good guy??
I dont think I should meet him again I guess. He seems very protective when he hangs out and possesive also seems caring. I don’t know is it all genuine nd real or fake?
I can’t understand why would you hangout with a guy you don’t even know… isn’t it messed up? Like how you met, and i guess there’s a chance of physical relationship?
He says he doesn’t wanna have sex and also that he doesn’t wanna get married also he doesn’t wanna be in commitment and stuff… and I am looking for a guy who is willing to be with me if our vibe matches and if things seem like working.
I met him as a frnd but that kiss just happened and I was open and okay to it but I don’t surely let him touch me and he keeps asking if I am okay with him
See ofcourse I’m genz but I’m not modern to understand all of this situation and surely not okay with it, listening you it seems you had multiple relationships before which is a really big thing to me even as a boy, but i just wanna suggest you to take a long brake forget to get in relationship again n again really often take time and find a right person to yourself, you will know when he’s arround untill then don’t get into relationship…its my personal opinion but you’re the boss
It’s good that you are recognizing that something is not right! So now that you have figure this out. Why not work on yourself, your mental and emotional health before anything else or anyone else. Try to familiarize with your emotions. Feel them. Write them down in your journal. And let them go. Also this is going to take time. There will be highs and lows and they will be extreme. Confront yourself. Do the self talk. Express your emotions to yourself, your family. Unless you heal yourself, please do not go forward with any relationship. Understand the process and learn. It takes time. Be patient and never give up. You got this!!
Yea I do have this habit of writing journals since secondary so ye and I am an author so I do write n number of poems and let my feeling out 😁I feel good and healed writing … also I talk to myself and try to understand the root issues … I wanna see myself being better nd not stagnant
You are on the right path. Now all you can you do is patiently watch yourself grow and transform :) good times are awaiting :) you got this!
