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Anxiety

Heyyy! Anyone up for chit chat?

I’m just feeling very very lonely and anxious. 
Let me know if anybody wants to talk. I’ll add you up. 

Lonely

If you had a warning label, what would yours say?

hi, I'm a 25 year old girl . my education completed now and I've been searching for jobs for months now. 
i come from a mentally and physically abusive family. there have been many traumatic events in my life . there's nothing that i haven't seen already . 
 i was always a shy and introverted kid, but still i wasnt depressed. i have been bullied by my teachers, friends, relatives and family because ive been fat all my life. all this resulted in me being   scared, very less confident, introverted and unable to share my feelings.  the worst is i hate myself . i have core self hatred issues. it resulted me in being soo self consious and negative i never used to part in any competions whether it be sports or any other . i always had the fear of being judged .my depression also started when i was in 10th standard and now its chronic. over the years ive tried to make my situation a little better. tried to change my thought process ,  tried to make some friends , a boyfriend but like every other person in my life , they also treated me very badly. 
i even went through and abortion recently . it shook me they way i never thought it would 
and now i dont have any strenght or hope
ive always kept my feelings to myself. made it a habit to do so as a child and now even though i want o share it i cant, i literally unable to share it. 
my sister and mother have tried to help me and still do , but they also have many traumas in life and are in the pit just like me.
Now i,m 100kgs , jobless, dont even have a friend to hangout with, not because they used to listen or understand me before, but atleast i had a place to go to when i wanted to divert my mind. i feel  completely alone.
 im literally not able to take any effort to change anything 
i cant even afford a therapist . i dont know what to do  

Mental Health

Anyone from Kolkata here? 

Intro

Wth is wrong with my mother, we ask to do stuff with her and she doesn’t want to and doesn’t care about our feelings
We do stuff with our dad and she’s instantly upset and when we drive home to get her she wants nothing to do with us. She doesn’t care. She never cares unless it’s convient to her. I’m thinking about commuting because I’m sick of being treated like trash. Maybe that will teacher her to pay attention to my siblings.

Family

Does anyone feel like I do?
Loving a person more than urself and holding on to him even after, him saying move on , I can't be with you every time you try to reconnect. And u know he loves you nd thts why he says those hurtful things . 
One side of u says not to put up with this shit anymore.
And the other side says to keep loving no matter what.
I do not know what is right for me anymore. 
Life sucks and it's unfair


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