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My parents send me to tution I really hate to go it's like the people there look down on me its been 3 yrs since I have been telling my parents to leave that tition but they didn't listen so I left the tution without telling anyone and then got caught but then after some month I repeat it and left the tution for the 2 time I'm forced to study there I really don't want to it's not that I don't want to study but I don't want to study THERE only and I have been dealing with this on my own for a long time and I started to have panic attacks but I thought it wasn't serious so I didn't tell anyone but then I started to have fever 3 weeks straight and then my mom dad took me to the doctor and discovered that I have anxiety after few day  I told them I don't want to go to that tution there they strong opposed my decision and started blaming me for my anxiety and fever i really don't know what is going on in my life it's all a mess and I'm really starting to give up now I used to have great self confidence but I lost it all and I'm used to love my self it is also falling away day by day I really don't understand what's going on

Idk I told them but they just don't listen to me 

I do have classmates but they don't live near my house they live really far and most of them don't even go to tution 

I don't know its just that I feel like they look down on me the teachers there don't even talk to me they just yell at me for no reason at all and I can't tell my parents if I tell they they only blame me 

It's all subject and I don't even understand the lessons there

Ya I will try to or maybe I will find a therapist  anyway Thank you!

Anxiety

Hi guys, is there anyone who has experienced heartbreak with someone you never dated? Can I send request to you, I need to vent. 

Love

iris- The Goo Goo Dolls

Music

The world can only see us 
They way we see ourselves 
But we only see ourselves 
As the world label us for them to see 

Sounds like irony 🙄 🤔🙄

Confusion

What is Hindutva, how are they different to Hindu in general? 

Introvert + overthinker + no conversation skills - worst combination ever 

3am Thoughts

Basically fighting with many on going thoughts right now, its all about a guy. I meet a guy recently because of my bestfriend, basically she is my online bestfriend and ofc she has irl friends too so there is this guy her boy bestfriend who she made me meet online only so we can be along and start a relationship but me and him is like we started getting along fall for each other too started relationship but it ended in 2-3 days. Its because he is like i cant be in relationship with you its not gonna work between us there is no us. I accepted we became close friends again but with benefits like we doing stuffs online only and now he and me both are addicted to each other we plan on meeting doing kiss and all those sinful stuffs but wont be in relationship. The fact he said me i am the first girl who does this to him i love him alot not as friends but more i am ready to see future with him too but he isnt ready. The fact he says he gonna take care of me, love me, cherish me and i am his and he is mine but its like he asked me if i am willing to give whole of myself to him or not i said yep all to him and again he asked me are you willing to be whole mine even when i am not whole yours? I still said yes because i said i love him alot i cant move back from him thats somwthing i can never imagine so yeah thats my vent. And now i am so obsessed that i am lacking in my studies more likely distraction tho i am trying my best to control but still i am, i dont know what i should do and all. 

Addiction

you know your the only person I'd loose sleep for. Do you know you're the only person I can't go a day without talking to.. Like I literally can't sleep if I haven't talked to you all day. you cross my mind every single day of every second. You make me so happy, it's like all my sad days are being erased. I still love all the things you do, from big thing to small things, I love every part of you but I can't even begin to describe it. I just can't wait to show you when I see you in person. I just can't wait for the day my lips meet yours and I am able to gaze into your eyes and get lost in your soul. I wan to be the shoulder you lean and cry on. I want you to be able to tell me all your secrets and how you feel, I want us to be able to break down each other's walls. Without hesitation I want you to be able to let me know when something wrong or when you feel alone. I don't want you to feel anymore. I want you to know that I will always be here even if we're not talking and even we're mad at each other. I want you to be able to come to me about al your problems and issues. You gave me e reason to wake up in the morning and be happy. When I hear your voice I just want to hug you so hard to the point where you can feel my love and feel my heart beating through my chest. 🌹🌸

I feel bery sad. I miss my ex.
Anybody up for some talk?? 

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