How we can put our live together like just so focused On our lives 

3am Thoughts

 I don’t have a job yet so he’s not treating me right and is mean to me. So is money the most important thing than love?

He refers to father 

Adulting

Im kind of confused on what shall I focus on. I know I only am the best judge, but wanted a bit of advice.
I have too much on my plate.
 - Have my CA exam in 2 months (MAIN TASK) - I dont enjoy studying for this, but have to study really hard. Importance of education, family, office, etc.etc
- Have to stay consistent on YouTube. Channel is 27k subscribers and if i give a break, the hardwork would go wasted
- Need to amp up and stay consistent on my fitness routine
- Need to start the reading, meditation habit
- Need to go to office from 9-5. (articleship)

Mind  says to just study and leave everything. But i really dont know.


Work

I need help regarding job and guidance related to that.
My parents can't support my further education and being a graduate(BSc) i tried applying for BPO as that's the only option I know but salary being offered is very less and I have to relocate also so overall it's not economically feasible for me to do that and I tried to go for international process, but couldn't clear it.
I am getting no clue that what can I do to get employment. 


Unemployment

So for me . It's really hard to let my guard off like i am the strongest person in my head . I'm that boxer who can not let anyone know that she can't fight anymore. Sometimes when i have a panic attack or feel extreme anxiety i feel like I'm making it up. In my head. Why? I don't know but i keep feeling that. I'm the biggest criticizer of my own. So i can't even tell anyone. Because my mind be like "Don't tell this. You are just doing it for sympathy. This is nothing. You are making it up". I harm myself. I take it out on myself. I doubt that i have ADHD but again my brain is like I'm faking it. How should i know what i am?

Mental Illness

I have anxiety and childhood trauma. I have noticed this pattern in my relationship. Monthly once I get very insecure and overthink and pick a fight . And once the fight is over I feel more loved. I know I shouldn’t fight but once in a month I keep doing it. I asked my bf for reassurance but he said that he can’t keep giving reassurance if I keep doubting his love.

Boyfriend

Hey, peeps. Hope y'all are doing well. Just a week, and we will enbark on our journey to 2024. What can I say this one year of Rollercoaster for me. Regretting the choices that I made also took a decision that I hope doesn't turn bad for me in 2024. Also, I will make sure that I don't regret that. I wish I just could go back to the year 2021 just to live 2022,23 all over again. But we can only wish because time and tide waits for none is after all true. I am writing this now at night, but still "HAPPY Christmas." I'm just hoping to make new friends atleast on the upcoming year's and to let my introvert side rest. Also I should try to make that as a resolution in 2024 and following it. 

How have you all been doing? Let me just keep my " Hope " aside and listen to you all. Also Now and me is so different than it was an year ago. So tell me about anything and let me try my best to reply you as I was not active for few months. Any questions you may ask me here too. 

Now&Me Thinks

Hey ! I don't know.. some people Ig don't deserve you even if how good you are to them . It's hard to accept the reality so I think that's why people take revenge. What do you think about revenge? 

Insomnia

I am emotionally weak. I get affected easily, for me little things matter. Everyone doesn't matter but for the people who matter for me their actions, behaviour, and everything towards me affects me deeply. Idk how am I feeling currently but its something I don't know how to explain. Sometimes I overthink a lot and cry.

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