How to lift yourself when you are almost at the verge of giving up ?

Yep maybe that's one thing I should do, prove to myself and others. Thanks 

It’s going to be very difficult but looking and thinking about your family should be the first step i guess. Please take care:)

You should lift yourself if you're dissatisfied in hell hole condition you're living. Do it if you want to change. Do it if for atleast once in your life you can prove to yourself and others that they are wrong. 

3am Thoughts

It occurred to me that whenever I'm on a trip I remember him, my ex. Idk if it somehow relate to me wanting him to be my travel buddy and we really loved to go to travels. I just wanna share it and hopefully by next time I won't remember him and the feeling of belonging to someone. 

Travel

Need someone to talk 

Im generally averagely confident, I have gained confidence these past couple of months, but with people who are close to me, sometimes i worry too much what they think, or I feel like i bother people, or that people dont care what I have to say. When im trying to get close to someone my confidence tends to go down compared to when I met them, and I start getting more sensitive and doubting more, staying quiet more, unless they are very accepting AND reassuring  I just kinda hide away and I wish i didnt do that. But with people Im comfortable with or family Im generally confident, its more like friends who dont know me too well

Self Esteem

I don’t get it why is it wrong to like bdsm ? People think you are a pervert if you like bdsm. I got dumped cause I told my ex I like it. She even told everyone about it. 

Adulting

Baarish khi mausam Mai, hath Mai chai liye hum kade the...
Teri yaadon kho bekarte hua Dekh hum mushka rahe the...
Jab khud kho paane hum mude...
Jo khali pan Tumne diye the..
sale dosto ne wo bhi Baar diye the...

Poetry

Okay so like Im not good with talking to people, And that cause im shy or whtever,so uhh i have 2 friends that are going to this one highschool its like maybe 5-6 minutes away from my house but it dosent matter(well for me) and this afternoon I got a notification and I opened it up it had said i had gotten acceoted to that school:) I was so damn happy. I decided to text my mom since I was in school during that time but yeah I texted her becuase of the fact that i was happy:,Ok so anyways she responds like a minute later and she comes at me with some negative stuff she was like who said you can go, or why that school. I got so emotional after that. I texted her after with sadness i was all happy and SH*T and she comes at me like that.I wasnt ahppy all day after that. It was the fact that i was so excited to tell her but then she was happy about that and thats another reason why i have these mental issues.....

Family

you know, it's actually shocking how I am comfortable in my own company. People say this pandemic was the worst period of their lives, but for me. I grew happy and more happy in my own company. anxiety did hit me like a fooking train, but I am sorta okay with how I turned out atthe end of the year. 

but, as the saying goes 'nothing lasts forever' thats's how it was for me. Got into bad company, and did something that only ruined my life, but made me hate myself to the extent that I start calling myself degrading names. I couldn't look at myself in the mirror. All the self confidence I had crippled. I start delf harmed. Atleast it made me not numb. I had anxiety attacks and still do. They are rang random, whenever I am overthinkig or just doing something. My heart starts beating at a really high rate, I get the sudden urge to cut. 

I had anxiety. I felt like whatever I would do, everyone was watching me. That I had to be likeable for people not to hate me I still have these thoughts. I have anxiety, I don't say it out loud cus for some people I am just over acting. 

I've got Anxiety. I am socially awkawrd. I don't love myself, but I want. I want to quit self harming, but it's hard. It's hard when all you want is for the pain to be numb, to not feel anything. 

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