How to forget past ,and concentrate  on present  I'm not. Able to forget people easily. Wat to do now..


Okay good. Has anything happened in past which is bothering u

Yeah  too many things. But I'm not able to concentrate.actually I feel lonely.

You can share , if comfortable may be you can feel better. What happened 

Do some reading about it. Learn meditation and try to spend some time alone to restrospect in open nature. Observe nature. Speak to old friends or find new one.

Anxiety

"May your troubles be less and your blessings be more and nothing but happiness come through the door."
 - Dorien Kelly

I hope you are doing well,but if you feels like you are losing hope..that there were a time when you were so weak mentally emotionally..and you choose not to give up on yourself..and came back more stronger and wiser...i know you must be thinking that there is no solution for your problems,i know you must be feeling that nobody understand you..i know Everything is just out of your control..but let me tell you if you forget you become strong by being vulnerable..you become wise by being stupid.. what i wanted to say there is no such things that can steal you from you..so don't give up on yourself... don't lose hope over the life..good things are coming into your life...take care of yourself..💜💜
- Queenn 👑

Mental Wellbeing

Everything would be finally fine if only I have the courage to k myself right now or as soon as possible.

Suicidal Ideation

I still remember everything when we met first time. I still remember your text your voice are always in my mind. I never regret that i fall in love with u because that's all i ever wanted. It hurts me to see u leave bcoz deep down i know i still love u, hoping that u will the one for me. I am sorry I can't be the one  u ever wanted and never will. I find myself looking for u in someone else but none of them is just like u. I miss the way u made me smile, the way  u made me feel special n your assurance that u are always here with me. U made me the happiest person i can be n i will never forget u. I hope u are doing fine n like i promise I am always here if u ever need me. At the end thankyou for letting me go bcoz i wouldn't have walked away....🥀

Overthinking

you told me that me distancing myself from you hurt you a lot, but really you've hurt me in so many ways to the point that i felt like the only thing i could do is distance myself from you so i dont get more hurt but really it hurt so much more than ive imagined and it fucking sucks because all ive ever done was love you and with you the best but you've hurt me more than anyone ever. but i still love you. even tho i shouldn't. it hurts like hell but im dumb i dont know any better. and you made me hate myself sm for hurting you to the point where i couldn't help it, to the point where i was about to give up on everything. and mabye its my fault because ik ive changed but ive changed because of you, literally. ever since you made me feel like im not enough for you.

I miss you J, I wish you missed me like I miss you. I wish I knew you're happy that'd make me happy. I just cannot digest the fact we aren't talking, I know I messed up but please for once come and talk to me. I don't want to bother you anymore so don't want to contact you, I wish you'd just send a hi and I'll be my most vulnerable version about how much I want you to be a part of my life forever. I know you must be questioning my genuinity but I swear I have the purest intentions with you. I loved asking if you were okay or not, I miss how sometimes you told me about your life and here I am with absolutely 0 updates from life. I don't even know if you're seeing someone but so want things to go back to how they were. I'm ready to apologize please come and talk to me. I tried pressing that call button but I couldn't thinking you wouldn't want to hear from me. 

3am Thoughts

you deserve all the love you try to give everyone else

What memories of us that i love so much
1. When you sat next to me on exam and during the exam i noticed i made a mistake and corrected it. When the result came out, it was so funny that you also do the same. So shame that i correct it, if not you will also know about this.
2. Im happy that you talk to me, i was nervous  and also happy when you talk about what you will do in your future and i think you tell this because you are comfortable around me, so do i!!!!
3. You also sat next to me again!!!!!! Im happy and nervous
What if...
1. I told my friend that i like you, they will tell you that secret and what will happen?
2. I also say i like you when you confess??
3. I stay longer at school and waiting for you to call me??
4. My phone are okey?? Will you contact me??
5. I text you today?? Will accept it with excitement or displeased?
I miss you, i know we live far from each other, i dont need us to meet each other or call each every single day. I just need you to love me back

It was my first time,
Wearing a saree, 
I was seeking,
Your approval or 
Validation. 
Don't know exactly. 

All evening through,
I keep staring at you. 
There were times,
When both our eyes met,
We were searching, 
Me searching you,
You searching whom
I don't want to know about. 

Everyday,
I yearn for eyes to contact,
Everynight, 
I cry for all the moments we missed, 

I wish you smiled at me, 
Just once, 
Fake or forced,
Compelled or compromised, 
Just once, for me. 
At me, for all the efforts. 

It broke my heart,
When you laughed at me, 
With your female friend. 
When I walked past you. 

Why would you do that? 
It gave a final kick, 
To my every night broken heart, 
And it falls apart, 
Every piece of my heart unceremoniously, 
on my diaphragm. 
But why do I feel like,
It lodged in my lungs instead,
And, I couldn't breathe. 

Why would you do that? 
Wouldn't you know,
I was already hurting, 
By loving you.
I was already made fun of, 
For still being stuck on you, 
Even after three years. 

We crossed paths,
many a times tonight,
I sure lost count on my fingers, 
Your head never, 
once turned to me, 
Your eyes never,
tried to hold an eye contact. 
I hear from my bestfriend,
That you were staring at her. 
But that doesn't helps me move on either. 

I watch you watching your crush, 
I watch you watching me watch you,
But there is little you do about it. 
Atleast tell me not to stare at you. 
Call me out. 
End this unbearable suffering of 
An unrequited love. 
Break my heart in one go, 
Stop butchering it,
Time and again. 

I am hurting,
I am clutching my heart, 
Swallowing my pride,
Drinking back my tears, 
Still giving you my heart, 
In my eyes, 
For you to walk, 
All over it. 

My each day, 
Begins with you,
Running in my mind 
And ends with you
stomping over my heart. 

If only my eyes had a voice, 
Everyone would've gone deaf,
With my confession of love. 

I wanted to entwine
my little finger, with you, 
When I walked past you. 
I prayed for our shoulders,
To brush, atleast a little, 
When you walked past me. 
I wanted to hold
The hem of your shirt, 
Stop you, 
Just to make you, 
Look at me, 
Look as in not like the usual,
Where your fleeting eyes,
Brush past mine, 
Just as one of the hers,
Who were swooming over you,
But Look at me,
For who I was. 

I might seem stooping low,
But I was ready risking it all,
to raise in your eyes, 
Yet I fall, 
Lower than ever, 
In your list, 
Little do you know,
I try to associate, 
With your friends, 
Just because, for you. 

I am not your type, 
You were making it clear 
I learned it, 
Following your eyes. 
I want to tell you, 
You weren't my type at all, 
I knew, yet I chose you, 
Damnation take my soul, 
My heart wouldn't stop,
Skipping a heart beat
At your sight. 

Every night, I cry to sleep, 
Wishing for one small reason, 
To hate you, 
Not to hate you, 
that's far fetched,
To unlove you, 
To lose, atleast one cent, 
Of the interest I had in you. 

You are unhealthy to me,
And still I crave for your presence, 
I look forward to tomorrow, 
Just to look at you, 
One time again. 

I can't strip for you,
I already stripped,
My self respect for you,
My self esteem for you, 
I can't go down than this, 
That's not me.  
Why would you do this,
To me. 


I wish you had stopped me, 
I wish I hadn't met your eyes, 
I wish I hadn't showed up tonight, 
That would've hurted less, 
Than you laughing on me. 
But how could I? 
I had to see you, 
To stop you running in my brain, 
But you ruined my heart. 


Thanks, for watching me watching you. 
For letting me watch you, 
I was stupid to think, 
You like me
The way I like you, 
You can never stand close,
To my feelings. 

Again, I don't know, 
If it's okay, to ask for your help, 
To help me to help you, 
To let you free,
From my mind and my eyes, 
For your help to help me, 
To save my dying heart.


Frozen by brain, 
Dead by heart,
Let me ask you one last thing,
Let me to let you go. 





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