how to escape a toxic household ! I’m 20, female. I will spare you the trauma dump. 

it’s a call for help. 

My dad and my brother are very sexist. I feel scared for my mum and myself. On some days I feel very stupid even talking about this because I know I come from a privileged background and other people have it way worse. 
I don’t want any money from my father he is very abusive. I’ve started having suicidal thoughts and I do not like who I’m becoming. I have never felt this weak and unsafe, in my entire life ! 
I just want to escape the place and so my mom and him can get separated. I am looking for actionable steps to take to escape my toxic home !! 

I had drafted the message. But it’s up for review apparently. 

I don’t believe so. I’m very new to this platform. I have not connected with anyone so far. 

I did. But now I’m scared for my safety. Physiologically they are stronger than me and I don’t wish to fight them anyway. I’ve locked my room and cried my eyes out. 
I don’t like who I’m becoming in this. I do not deserve this. 

What exactly is happening around. Maybe someone among can suggest something productive. 

You know I did filed a complaint a few months back. I’m educated and that was what I was taught. To stand up for myself and seek legal help. 
But what they don’t teach you at school is that the entire system can be bought ! My father is good friends with the DSP and even though the complaint was filed to the national women’s commission, when it came down to local level. He was not even scared or bothered. He simply said it’s not good for our family’s image. They never even apologised and I was made to take the complaint back due to pressure 

Thankyou that is very assuring. But I don’t wish to be rescued. Don’t get me wrong, I just don’t want to DEPEND on anyone at the moment. I honestly feel I should’ve started working right after school to support myself. One of the primary reasons why I’m not able to escape my house is that I’m not financially independent yet. 

Gather some courage and fight for what you deserve. 

You wanna talk? I am a girl. Let me know.

Domestic Abuse

I have a bf but i feel loneliner than before.. i cant even tell him i miss him everytime i do in fear that he might be tired of hearing it or that his feelings for me will not be as much as before.. can someone tell me if vulnerability or being showered with those things makes your feelings for them get low since you feel a sense of security?? 

Frustration

I'm working in vb.net for nearly 2 years. I wanna switch my job.  But I'm confused. I'm don't have the basis of .net. I only know how to solve the bug I get from my current work Atmospher. so should I learn c# and other related things of .net and switch job or should I entirely change my job role from .net to other domain(like WordPress  or any other new language) . 

Career

Sad Because Things are not happening as i wanted. Its happening according to people around you and you know its wrong and u dont have any option except accepting it life is messed up

Okay here is my another experience this is not a case this is the reason why I entered in paranormal field, himachal pradesh is a damn good place to visit, but you know it's dark side?
I won't say it is a dark side, but it is something,
I was with my mom in dharamkot, we went to visit mcleodganj, as we entered in the range of mcleodganj I wasn't feeling comfortable, that was the first time when I was experiencing any vibe, so I just ignored that I thought maybe I am tired that's why I am feeling like this, there is a st John church in mcleodganj, I found that really attractive I went over there and I was clicking selfies, then a couple came and said "aap humari pic le sakte ho kya? Actually we forgot our mobile at the hotel, mai aapko no. deta hu uspe pic whatsapp kardena" so I clicked their pictures and really they were adorable, after visiting mcleodganj we reached hotel, when I was having bath I saw a huge mark on my back, it was really weird but I was confused so I ignored it for that moment, I was scrolling my gallery to send them their pics, I was damn shocked there were just 2 coffins in all the pics nothing else, when I called on that no. The person who picked up my call was girl's father and he said "parso hi uski death hui hai"......I still have that contact no. whenever I see that contact no. I only ask one question "why me?" Still this is one of the unanswered question in my life

Can anyone suggest the learning resources to know more about stocks, crypto, etc? 
Like I want to invest my money to get returns accordingly...

Adulting

Is it wrong for me to move on so easily...?
I was going through some stuff and I wanted a way out....I wanted to talk to someone who I would never meet cause sharing feeling with some who I would meet everyday was really scary....so I decided to text this guy on IG.....we were actually classmates in our second grade.......when I introduced myself to him in ig...he didn't remember me at all and I actually felt relieved.....we became good friends....he considered me as his best friend......but I wasn't really able to open up to him too but I liked talking to him cause it was like a escape from my life......we talked almost everyday for around 2 years.....and somewhere he caught feeling for me....I knew about it but as I didn't have any feeling of that kind towards him I just acted like I didn't know how he felt....... during this 2 years we never ever met once.....and then we got into a fight I didn't talk for a month or so.....I knew he wanted me to text him first but I didn't cause I was really hurt.....but then I realized that I kind off missed him.....note that I have never every in my life missed anyone ever so i thought I liked him too....and one day I finally texted him to confess my feelings but he did it first I was really happy and i confessed too.....I didn't want to directly go into a relationship cause it wasn't long since I realized that I liked him and wasn't actually able to imagine him that way so I suggest that we talk it slow and instead of jumping straight into a relationship how about know each openly first.....like how about we date first.....he said okay but then I had this feeling of guilt always...he was able to express his emotions so openly and they were just so heavy for me as I was not used to dealing with such feelings....and one day when he said that he loved me I didn't feel the butterflies in stomach but instead felt a pit of guilt fill in and I really felt like shit....I tried to reply with at least an hart emoji but it felt so wrong and then I knew I didn't like him anymore.....I felt so bad that even when I am receiving so much love I can't love him back and constantly felt like I was using him for passing my time.....I felt like shit...how could I do something like this to someone....I finally broke up with him just after a month of us dating.....I could tell he was totally broken and I knew I was the reason for that.....just because of my momentary feeling I broke someone so bad....I thought I could still be friends with him but that too felt so wrong....after what I did I felt like it was best for him to have me out of him life....and also cause....I felt a kind of relief fill in me....and I felt so guilty for that....I couldn't possibly be able to be friends after everything....i blocked him everywhere......and the worst part is I got over him so easily.....the guilt of breaking a innocent heart was there but I didn't regret what I did....I don't regret what I did...... only thing is how am I so heartless that I was able to forget our 2 years of friendship so easily....how can I be so cold.... 

Friends

Have you ever been caught crossdressed?
guess what! I got caught today by my mom.
idk aaj kyu itni jaldi chali aayi 🥲

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