How many of you like to holding hands of your loved one's? Spend a beautiful day ahead with them🌸

There is no one to hold my hand right now except god 🌻

Affirmations

How funny it is.....
Humans created so many things to make their own life easy. Information on fingertips, food and delivery at the door step work from home Kids with babysitter and whatnot but what's the point we feel dipshit lonely at the end of each day 
We have everything but something is still missing 

Adulting

My nephew just doesn't leaves me ... Even if my sister or bil leaves the home he stays with me and gives a flying kiss to them from the balcony .. he's 3y/o 🥺

3am Thoughts

Can you be bestfriends with someone and not expect anything from them? Not even a slightest expectation like they'll be there for you in your bad times?

Conflict

I feel bored 


College

Har ghadi badal raha hai roop zindagi
Chaav hai kahhi hai dhoop zidnagi
Har pal yahan jee bhar jiyo
Jo hai sama, kal ho na ho

Like i don't know i was not that afraid of this corona much before
But today my most favorite teacher deceased..
Like we talked yesterday night..just 2 hours before he passed away..as i was leaving my school i had a great emotional talk with him..like first i was not gonna call him because i felt a little shy...but my mind and heart were forcing me to call him..like i felt i would regret i don't..and after 2 hours of cutting the call i found out that the person i just talked to is no more..☹️☹️
I didn't even knew he was suffering from the virus..like he was so good person..though he was suffering from the virus he didn't told me and also he motivated me very much..because he knew i had got less marks this year..he was also like beta jab tum doctor ban jaogi..hume to free me service dogi yaa hume bhi charge krogi..haan..hamari guru daxina samaj ke free me services de dena..he was laughing and cracking jokes to mitivate me he said..ek din jab doctor ban jao aur me budha ho jaunga..tab is budhe sir ki yaad aye to milne aana..i would always wait for you to come..white coat pehenke..gale me sthethescope lagake hi aana...aur phir un saare teachers ko dikhayenge ke yehi wo ladki hai jiski aap burai krte the ke ye doctor banegi..ye to nurse ke bhi kabil nhi hai..sab dekhte reh jaane wale hain..hann.yaad rakhna you'll become a great doctor one day..bhale hi abhi tumhe sab demotive kr rhe hai..i belive in you beta..bhale hi sab abhi impossible lag raha hai..just work hard my child..and ek din you'll be a great person in future...this were his exact last words he told me
he passed away because oxygen was not available anywhere
 this is affecting me too much 😭😭
i have't slept all night..why this covid is doing like this..why god takes away all the good people so soon..i just feel lost..i feel like i don't have any purpose..he was the only one who believed in me..he was like my second father..
I just don't know yarr..i can't even see him last time....
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Feel lost Everytime...😑

I met a guy few months back , initially he asked me about my past relationship but I was not comfortable that time as I had just met him. Later after few months when I was sure about him then I told him about my past.

My past was very complicated. He was my college friend and after college, we moved to different cities and then there was this lockdown for 2 years and we were working from home . As we were from different caste so there was no possibility of us getting married in future as my family is very strict about it and we knew it from start so we decided to end it. But as he was my friend so even after break up sometimes we used to connect over call .

After 2 years of break up, coincidentally we were in the same city and we decided to catch up and honestly just for dinner.

When I told this new guy about my past relationship, he started digging in to it that why did I hide it initially. The only reason I hid it is , I was not comfortable and I feel that someone's relationship is very personal and can't share it until you trust someone.

He said that he can't trust me as I hid it from him and also when he got to know about that I met him recently for dinner and all, he started fighting with me and made our relationship so toxic that it is almost over. 

I love this guy so much and didn't hide my relationship intentionally. He is not trying to understand. I know that I didn't do any wrong with him and I have always been loyal to this guy and love him so much. I am not sure how to make him understand. Can someone please tell me what should I do. 

I am exhausted now, everyday I call him and try to make him understand. Its been a month now, everytime he just says that he can't trust me and can't continue.

What should I do, should I wait for him or should I move on?

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