How long does it take to get over a breakup? Right now I just have flashbacks of all these good memories and I wonder will I ever have that again with anyone. Times are tough for me now, my overall focus has gone down a lot. I want to work on myself and become a better version of me. But not getting the motivation from within. I know time heals everything and I want to be hopeful about it. I’m keeping my fingers crossed that I come out of this soon.

I dont know much about breakups but hang in there...
U're gonna meet someone better 💖

Breakup

Today I'm angry and sad both. Which is more I struggle to define. 
My mom confessed today that she has purposely not cooking for me and making sure I don't have anything to eat. Not like snack or anything just basic food like roti sabzi. She thinks this will cause my weight loss. 
Honestly I don't have any issues with my weight but my parents do. Even though I'm highly accomplished individual, they keep insulating me all the time. Becoz of pandemic I was forced to live with them and it's almost been an year and on days are really rough.

Narcissism

I don’t know why people bother becoming parents when they can’t do their job.
How can a mother be so ruthless? How can a mother be so heartless? 
All my life I have been abused by her, cursed by her and told all sorts of things.
Even in sickness, when others are extra caring, my mom still abuses me. It’s so hard to live with her. Every single family member is suffering because of the way she is.
I have suicidal feelings. My heart hurts and I don’t know when things will end. 
How can someone you love, hurt you so much? So much that death seems better than life. 😣

Emotional Abuse

I wanna cry so bad ... My heart feels too heavy to handle  ...  I am  so angry with myself and the situation and everything else 

3am Thoughts

Can anyone guide me? 
I received a message today saying if i complete task I will get paid.
I completed it, It was about posting fake reviews of hotels, resturant etc. I got paid for it too.
Can it be a scam that can harm me ?

Anxiety

It's just hard to put yourself first.. all my life I always put other people before me.. I just can't hurt anyone.. I'd rather get hurt.. but it's just been so difficult because of this.. got very lonely, exhausting, and numb.. I just wish someone would love me, and it won't change w time and situation.. it just feels so guilty to put yourself first..

Self Love

Lonely😌

from looking at myself in the mirror, i hate what i have turnned too. I use to be such a badass. I still dont take any crap, but the fact i have let every one beat me down. i dont see the funny out going person anyone, i would rather stay home and keep to  myself. I hate that i have turned into this unknown person.... i hate it. I dont even know what to do anymore,, but clean my house and do my art and raise my kids... i used to fine the funny side to everything , like really wouold becasue thats how i get through things, i use hurmor. Becasue if everyone else is going to be laughing at me i should be laughing too. But im to the piont im just tired, im tired of how much to kills me on the inside to put a smile on, or even to get out of bed most days... Then i look at my boys and think if you two werent here i wouldnt be either.

Hey friends,
Please name the exams or certifications or anything worth learning or practice you know of. I wanna come out of my past now. Well not JEE and NEET. I am already doing a job in IT as a fresher but on an inbuilt tool. Nothing of a experience outside.

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