Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

But it’s not good feeling

Well feeling in such way make me very anxious, one moment i think may what ever come , i will fight like a bull but same time i feel emotional and wants to hide in corner and let everything pass. It’s hard to manage urself outside when in mind these both feelings are contridicting

Appreciate your words , sounds like you do understand. I tried journaling but did not feel safe in writing my feelings in words,it like if i write i will accept that i am feeling vaurnable and that will take over on my fighting spirit. So i tried to keep it buried,
But that’s comes with differnt other problems like high heart rate all the time,getting very emotional unable to hold back tears in even small talk.

I tried to be strong for my loved once as i feel like I am the backbone holding everything right and if i let weak feeling overcome i may fall and it will cost my loved ones as well.so i keep reminding myself u have to be strong always no matter what.
Don’t know it feels like here i can talk about it and may be getting it out of my system may help me.

hugs to you too❤️
Sounds like you went or going through same. It’s hard to be one of the good ones to always think about others offcourse only those matter not all and seeing them happy and safe drives you in your life. But you are right have to be selfish sometimes in subject to mental health. At the end we can’t change our personality or who we are.
So have to figure out ways to give ourselves pep talks. But it is good that we know we have to do everything we can for people we love. And offcourse talking to someone about this really helps. Wish we can have such persons in outer life as well. It’s hard to find people who actually understand us on take efforts actually to understand other and also there are the taboos who block people mentality.

I feel like taking a stick and school everyone out there. 😆

Thanks for listening and support , You take care too dear❤️

Actually it’s quite opposite i lack on energy

That’s good actually, willpower can be such a pain in the ass , but energy on the other hand is easy to boost.

Yeah that’s is true , but when u are mentally exhausted , bringing back that kind of energy is not easy, wish there is something like energy drinks for mental energy too.
And yes i know yoga and breathing helps,but getting to know the route cause is hard to feel in such way. Because your own feelings confuses you and that drains your energy

Maybe we are trying to hard to fix ourselves, maybe we should let things fall where they might, even for me someday I’m high on energy, some days I’m not but I don’t burden myself with the fact that why this is happening with me , I just let things flow .