Shubham @shubham_0519
Hope is the hardest love we carry 💜🤍
what’s your deal? i feel like you like me but next moment i feel like you don’t. truth of the matter is i cannot keep doing this forever. i cannot keep zoning out every time i start thinking of you and my friend has to snap their fingers before me to come back to reality. i cannot keep checking if you have sent me something new even though we stopped talking long time ago; who knows, you might need to know my favourite color or my favorite bagel place in the city. i kneeled before my bed and promised last night that i will keep it casual but i cannot keep wishing for involuntary holding of hands when we cross the street in the same breath. i cannot keep being the only one wanting to see what this is. i understand going with the flow but my impatient heart doesn’t. i am at a point where i don’t even care anymore. i have a good heart that’s all yours if you want it. so tell me what this is. i can wait for the day when we don’t have to say goodnight over the phone and count down the days when i get to see you again but i need to know if we make it to the end of this story. you have to tell me what this is, if there is anything beyond intentional starts to a conversation at “ELEVEN” at night that dies down in “ELEVEN” minutes because they say hope is the hardest love to carry. i feel like i am waiting for something that isn’t going to happen.
