RAMU @rj1993
Holding a piece of rope in my hope, mustering the guts to tie it to the ceiling… I am posting here cause nobody reads my stupid posts, I don’t want to die but don’t want to live either. Just a waste of existence, my life is a mistake, everyone is laughing at me.
No one is laughing at you…and it might seem like the easy way…life might be very struggling, and it might seem everything is going wrong and all…but things will change. So wait…give yourself some time to figure things out…okke sheri aavum. And don’t look at things as if they are coming against you, like it’s just the thoughts trying to keep you in the comfort. Idk what exactly you are going through and i might not understand it…but I can hear you out…if you want someone to listen.
RAMU @rj1993
Onnum Sheri akilla, enike thalake sugham illa schziophrenia anu and a plethora of other mental health issues, innu allenkil nale jeevitham thernal mathi enna avasthayil anu. Maduthu, njan normal alla… life onnum Sheri akilla, universe is conspiring against me.
Ellam Sheri aayikolam. Seek professional help da. Familyikk ariyamo ith? Ee platform ninnk help chegiyilla
Is it clinically diagnosed or are you like thinking so…like as per the symptoms you have? And also…mental illness is not a disease…it’s more like a condition, so you don’t have to say or even think like thalakku sugalla, kinda thing bro. And also…yup…it might feel like the universe is conspiring against you…but trust me on this…the universe doesn’t care…nor does anyone or anything in it. Are you willing to come out of it, or do you wanna stay in it. And yeah I do know that it doesn’t work that easily, as in everything will change with a snap or anything. Life does is complicated, and chelappam we might feel like there’s nothing we can do about it. Ik it’s a very hard thing to come out of that zone…but can you try…like ik you might have tried it before…and might have felt like, no there’s no progress or anything. But still…do try…like we can have a solution oriented convo if you are willing to… like am not much educated or even good at the solution finding thingy…but we can try. Like what if, chelappam we’ll be able to take it step by step as in one step at a time, which might not tire you out, like small steps one by one brother.
I’ve been under treatment for 12 years, my family knows, nothing helps… i somehow survived yesterday, don’t know about my future. I had NET exam today, athinu poyilla, veetil exam undennu paranju erangi… don’t know what to do.
I am clinically diagnosed, 12 varsham ayi. Schioaffective disorder with bipolar, it’s hard living with this illness and it’s a disease… no matter how lightly anyone puts it. It’s tough each day and I am out of hope, innu UGC NET exam undayirunnu njan athinu ennu paranju erangi and am just wandering here and there, feeling scared and helpless, train thala vekanam enoke thonuva… don’t know, I wanna make it back home but I also don’t wanna live anymore, 30 ayi age, life fail ayi, am not normal…
I was not trying to sound like it’s not a serious thing. And…don’t do that brother…you would have such thoughts…but don’t you ever choose that path. Like i do know that whatever that I am gonna say, you already know all of it. And I am not comparing you to anyone or trying to make it sound like your problem is not much of an issue or anything like that. Like…i have a friend who is at his 30 rn, and he does not have a job. He is struggling too and we talk about these things and try to figure it out. so wt i mean is that, all we can do is try right. Like…id exactly know if I would be any help…like yeaa idk…
At least ur friend has you to talk to, i don’t have anyone to talk to, everyone considers me a weirdo and am not good at friendships, i don’t have any redeemable qualities nor am smart, learning/intellectual problems unde, bhudi kuravanu… orupadu job exams okke ezhuthi onnum pass ayilla, koode ullavae ellam job ayi married and settled, avare ikke face cheyan nanakedu, enike ithu onnum vidihictilla. I don’t deserve happiness, maduthu ellam, i am even ashamed that I have this mental illness.
. @storyofclouds
Well I didn’t reply to this, cause tbh idk how I can be of any help, but if you want to talk about it, we can.
RAMU @rj1993
That’s all right, i don’t need help or suggestions, I just want someone to talk to.
. @storyofclouds
Well, we can talk. If you want to…
RAMU @rj1993
Ok
Don’t think about everybody think about yourself. Don’t think of ending this life. You only have one. You can do so many things. You only need to be motivated. And you are the only one who can motivate you. Do your best to prove yourself not to others but to you. Stand in front of the mirror and ask yourself what do you want in your life. It’s your life if you end this here you will have nothing but regret.
Trust me success hits different when no one believes in you. And always remember ending is not the only solution you have to find others too. They always there just look for it.
Good luck buddy. Hope you will find your goal in the life. 😌😌
