Hmm i am feeling lonley i need a caring GF.. 

3am Thoughts

Having GFS is heaven 

Affirmations

This frustration is irresistible 

God I love her 

Love

The frustration 

i need emotional support and healthy suggest too i dk how to deal  and where to get though i mean someone had a crush on me but now it's too late for me make up this stuff and now every time i feel regret bcz its my fault she tried to express her feeling i really want to accept the proposal thou bcz its my first time someone say this stuff from thier heart but i have some reason which i can't now regret kills from inside its feels like i cheat someone else feelings and i don't think deserve someone for several years and regret will kill me from the inside till the end of my day i am not kidding i swear .

College

I feel i am tired of living i am tired of bearing this pain since we ended our 7 year relationship after fighting for long 1 year its just 3 month and as the tym its getting harder for me handle this pain i loved her with all everything i have so does she but last year april 2020 when everything seems perfect we had that unfortunate argument which was beacuse of her miss understanding and we just didn’t able to get over it we faught every 3rd day since that happened i tried to everything us from stop fighting we were fading and it was visible our conversation are dying she stopped trusting me she was falling apart and i tried everything I wasn’t able to hold her after everything happened we finally borke up in December at first I thought this  will gonna make things better for both of us but as the time is its getting difficult everyday i don’t feel any motive of working , or taking care of me , of living i just want to end my pains i feel like just disappear 

Breakup

PART -3 ; She replied to me how you can turn to such person from the enemies to this love .. may be i want to know and of this question as i love u in same way .. as i want u the same way u do .. yes i love u lots … and this words made me blush like mad some person who dont know me can also say that yes he is blushing yaa it wast next feeling like getting ur lover in a single chance no hard work no mess ups .. yaa but I was all set to handle her tantrums whole life i was ready to fight for her.. yeah being typical nibba but yaa she meant to me more than anything.. and all started on positive note .. everything was going great meeting in school going out on reason of classes meeting each others at home with reason of notes and studies .. and we promoted to 9th and the point came once in dance class after being whole day together for school function then classes i dont know what changed she was standing and wasn’t ready to go home she said mann i wanna say u something and that sudden line made me numb what could it be and again those negative thoughts ran-up through my mind whether she is leaving me.. whether i messed úp anything blah boa and she said mann calm down listen .. i want …. Continue in PART 4

Celebration

Now I'm in a relationship but I'm not happy with it because she never ask  me to meet or spend time together not talk to much yes we both are working in same city but still can't meet or can't go for a date  whenever I ask for go out she always have other plans we barely talk for 1 hour in a day I'm giving her a space but still I want to be with her we known to each other for like 5 years and now we in relationship I'm confused I don't know if she intrest in me or not I don't want to end this relationship 

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