his smile , and his laugh were one of the memorable things ever , i miss him so much . 

thank you so much , i appreciate you ❤️

Breakup

Feeling at ease
But something deep down keeps tumbling.
Did my repugnant feelings just go away
Or have I suppressed them 
Covering them up by distracting those feelings
Like smothering a face to cease its breathing? 
But you do that for you think breathing be least essential.

But at the end of the day
Your confused
Of the vanishing part of it.
And question yourself
For switching from "I" to "you" in the same phrase
Although both referred to you. 
Me.
What am I avoiding?

Relief is
Now I am at ease since they've left me.

Depression

lol why do i always fall for the guys who probably need therapy 

3am Thoughts

When I take medication, I feel like I'm not the one in control anymore. I start to question who I am. I want joy in my life that isn't temporary. I want friends. I'm so lonely.

1 + 1 = 
( you have limited time left )?
No cheating 

I have this scar on my forehead and it really visible. I feel really insecure about it even though I got the scar years ago. 
Every time I meet someone I get asked how I got it and I really hate it when people ask, but I still answer them because I don't really want to be mean. Some people have made a few hurtful comments about it and every time I think about it, it makes me cry.
I also get comments like:
"The scar fits you "
"You look really pretty with it"
 But I feel like people just say that to be nice. I can't give someone a full eye contact when I'm having a conversation with them because I feel like they are looking at my forehead.
I really wish I could just go back in time and erase the day I got the scar.
I  love myself but loving the scar is hard. I know there are scar removing creams but it's too risky to use them because I don't know if there are side effects.
Looking at today's beauty standard you are supposed to have flawless skin but that's impossible for me.
Pls, help me.
Oh, by the way, I'm a female and a teenager


Self Love

Hey! There's a thing i mean my boy whom i literally love a lot cheated on me twice in 2 years and like i forgave him but the thing is its been almost 2 years from it now and im still not able to get over it i mean i love him but there's a time i overthink like crazy like wt if it happns again i try my best to trust him n i do trust him but tht trauma isnt leaving me alone n idk how to react to this idk if its my mistake or m just hurting inside n its affecting my mental health a lot like i always find myself stressing over it i dont know wt to do

Anxiety

Just why people have to come to your life , act like they care , give you the best memories and then freaking leave and act like they don't know you....was everything just a game ? They now behave as if they don't even know your existence.....passing by the hallways and making eye contact.... there's no recognization.....Never knew people could be so heartless....If I did something wrong please confront me instead of just ignoring me...

Can anyone explain me the epilogue(ending) of "The alchemist".I am bit confused.. 

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