Hii! Hope y’all are well. Woke up feeling a lil low this Sunday morning, cancelled plans with friends but had to lie to them about why I’m cancelling because sometimes even your friends don’t respect your boundaries. Can we please normalise cancelling plans when we’re just not feeling up for it and not actually having to lie about it.

How are you feeling today?

Hey , good morning yes cancelling plan is really normal , first of all you have think about yourself , focus on yourself take a rest , calm down do whatever makes you feel better . Do meditation
I also wokeup sad today and I did it and now m feeling a bit better .
Hope this will work
Don’t worry everything’s gonna be fine

Life

My inner monsters are pulling me into the darkness. 
Wanna do something in my life but aisa lagta Hai ek kadam aage leti hun toh dus kadam Peeche leleti hun. 

Adulting

I'm tired of explaining myself to everyone. I'm a short tempered girl because of which I've said so many things to people,which was wrong. And I'm not denying anything. But every fuckin'word coming out of my mouth doesn't have to do anything with me being short tempered. And most of the time,I am misunderstood. People think that I'm overreacting about being misunderstood but I feel hurt..
I'm losing a piece of mine every single time when people judge me just because I can't control my anger and emotions well. I know people can have different views about anyone and anything but treating a person in a particular way just because you have a wrong notion about him/her is fucking wrong.  
As a result of all this,I decidedd not to react at anything particular. I tried to hide in my own cocoon.
But the question is,did they change their views about me?
Answer-Absolute No!!!
They still think i overreact about every matter. They think, hiding in my own shell was also a consequence of my overreaction. I'm hurt and misunderstood. But I'm tired of explaining this to everyone.
 
*I'm tired of explainations*

Stress

I have a college classmate and he mostly sent adult jokes, jokes related to intercourse. He has video chatted with me and instead of general talk he only used to talk about intimate experience if I had any but I didn't have had any so the answer was none always. He used to ask if I ever felt like sleeping with anyone. What was he trying to do, checking if I'd sleep with him?

3am Thoughts

He lay on his bed, motionless staring at the fan going round, the sound of it, no longer bothers them anymore. 

She was getting dressed up, the time she had in front of the mirror was always the happiest. A transformational process everyday, it might just be a simple Kajal or a lipstick and a complementing pair of earnings and the Bindi to bring it all together but she liked watching herself perfecting the look. It took the whistle of the cooker to break her concentration. She got up to attend to the loud questions from the kitchen but  not before giving one last look to herself. She was reasonably happy with what she achieved in the rush. Can women be fully satisfied with their looks anytime? 

Rushing to the kitchenette which was not very far from her cupboard, she asked her hubby to increase the speed of the fan. The lack of response from him did bother her a little. 

Her thoughts at that moment - Thank God I did not ask about his opinion about my looks. 

Men will never understand how much validation women crave and how much it boosts their confidence. 

She herself increased the speed of the fan as he was still lying there staring into abyss. 

Once she was done cooking, she adjusted her salwaar and dupatta and left the small 1 room home, before closing the door she said - "Dinner is ready, have it when you want, don't forget to keep it back in the fridge once you are done." He looked at her and smiled, she smiled back and closed the door. 

On her walk to the railway station she always thought about him

Her thoughts - I wish he gets better, he is not himself. 

She was thinking that she should have been more expressive back then. She was apprehensive when he had come home and said that he was investing in a taxi business with his friends, but she held back seeing his enthusiasm and excitement. They were happier when he worked as a driver, he earned enough for them both, she used to do tailoring at home, had small savings, they could go to see movies once in a while, the occasional marine drive walks and the chats and street food. They loved each other and were building their lives. 

But dreams and aspirations play their tricks. A better home, may be a place with water connections that didn't get waterlogged in the rains. 

Among these thoughts she never realised that she boarded the train and reached her destination as well. 

As she was waiting for the car to arrive, she was preparing herself for work. The only thing she was happy about her work was that she met him through it. Once they got married she had left it with great difficulty and never ever thought she will ever get back to it. 

She saw the car turn at the curb, took a deep breath and got her smile on her face and entered it, she was thankful that she had a couple of goo good old clients who still treated her well and paid enough to pay of the debt.

Love

Anyone wish to connect ? Let's explore if our vibes match.

Don't talk to me... Jaao nhi karni ab baat.

Breakup

I have a question. How does one is diagnosed with depression? Like if u wanna get tested professionally how does it work? I know there are symptoms but I wanna know how does it really work? What doc you go? Are there any tests of chemical imbalance or entirely on what we tell them we are going thru. You know for quite a while I been feeling I'm going thru depression but I dismiss that saying my mind is just playing games w me or im just giving excuses or being lazy or seeking attention (tho I never tell anybody what I'm going thru) I really need some technical clarity on this subject. I know of all the symptoms n all but we also know symptoms of every disease yet how we go to doc n take blood tests n confirm whether we have that disease or its something minor. How does this process happens with this disease called depression? 

Depression

Life is just so hard. Its hard to live with anxiety. Its hard to live in a different country all alone. I just wish I knew suffering all of these would make the future easier.

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