Hie guys what if your partner wants to have children soon after getting married but you would still like some more years to even think about the idea of having kids .What should I do besides talking to him my thoughts about having a baby instantly 

Marriage

The Dichotomy of Craving the freedom to do anything and the Longings of a companion while being free😶‍🌫️

Confusion

Your words are like knives
They peel my skin and pierce my soul... 
Your body will burn tonight... 
Though your heart may still remain cold
And I will blame myself
And I will blame myself

Music

Talk?

Actually the thing is that....i am an introvert and i dont have many close friends to share my secrets with which i had felt bad about....So this was 2years back when i met my bf. He is my classmate and when i met him for the first time i felt he was more like a fun loving person(fact is that i liked his way of speaking and fun like never before....but i did not take it seriously).It was the first year of college when i met him.He had a female friend in the same class to whom he was very much close more like a lover that  she used to share everything with him even the most personal things(even the physical things) about her relationship......They were very close friends like she has even told him that she would have accepted if he were to propose her..... I became even more of just an acquaintance to him during the 3rd  semester exam study leaves through FB.At that time he was upset as his friend was not talking to him....He complained that she ignores him when her boyfriend comes....So i just consoled him that bestfriend always has a special place in the heart n that she too will have...We had frequent chats during that time.....I became more close to him(as a friend) that i even failed for an exam due to anxiety as we had a fight during the chat and he was not talking to me....after the exams he went back to her N life was the same to me again though he was in touch with me....He had this habit of having fun by making her jealous but knowingly talking about other female friends which he used to tell me when he tells my name to her....But i was a person who knew little about possessiveness  that i used to ask him that y is she so much frustrated when he does so....One day she got so much mad at him that they stopped talking when he told her about me since the previous days...i advised him to go n talk to her ...That day he talked to her and the problem was solved but i felt a little sad when i saw him with her....When i was commuting back home after college by bus i had to control my tears when i saw them chatting even in the bus.He consoled me that day through chat. After few days he broke up with his friend and the reason was me which i came to know a few days back.After that incident, i used tell him to go back to her(even if i would feel sad).....but he was angry at her that he refused.After few months of friendship ,he proposed me as he didnot want to lose me but not out of love.But i could not leave him as i loved him so much and was very happy.He was sincere in this relationship and he still is.Now, his old friend has started talking to him....But she loves him so much n also misses him which she has told him but she doesnt become that close thinking that i would feel bad and he also has a deep connection with her in his heart.... He still has this  habit of making both of us jealous and insecure by telling about the other person's name .I also have so so sooo much of this guilty feeling that i was the reason for their breakup that i want to give him back to her as i feel that he like her from the depth of his heart (But he was the only person close to my heart😖)....What do i do????....Should i leave him forcefully saying some other reason so that he is back with his bestest friend ever(he has told me that) and also i can get rid of this guilty feeling .......He says that 
he cant lose me but not her either as he feels some kind of connection with her...... Someone help me(Sorry for this long note and my bad English)

Relationships

So i was in 2 month relationship, and bcoz of some problem I needed 10k and she gave me, I received it as a debt.  she left me 3 months ago, and now she is messing up with me again, she called me today and asked me to meet her , I said no many times, then she asked her money, I said I'll give back, she said give me money or meet me, 
Yesterday a guy called me and said that she's struggling to live without me and wants to talk to me, 
I have exams and I'm soo messed up. 

Breakup

I need help to move on my life. If trust my boy friend but he was ccheating me all the times, I'll give many chances to change his character but he never change and hurt me alot . I need good caring friends becoz I'm not feeling well and my thinking also wrong way so pls give me a solution.

Depression

Hamare shabda chotey jarur hai
Par etney ba nahi
Ki apka Dil na Chu sakhe. 

3am Thoughts

I am so frustrated right now. I can't even express it. So I am about to give an entrance exam for post graduation in 3 months and that exam is super tough. My parents have such high hopes and I always feel a constant pressure because my elder siblings have done really great in life and in the same exam too. It's not that I don't study or I don't want to give exam. But now I am frustrated. I have been studying for it for almost an year now and I just can't take it anymore. 

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