Hi there everyone, i rlly hope theres a random stranger who tries to read and listen to what i want to share.
I dont know why but these past few weeks i dont feel like existing, i just feel off. i dont like to have small talks with anyone. All i want to do is sit inside my room. Just watch something on my laptop and phone. I am currently recovering from my broken foot and i cant go anywhere. I feel like im stuck at home and all i do is wasting my time. I am 18 now and in my country, right now is the right time to take driving license and find a job etc etc before we enter college/universities. i am also nervous thinking about how to make new friends when i continue my studies later on. And these past few months has been a lockdown, it was kind of a relieve because i dont feel the need to socialize. But ive been feeling off even before the lockdown (which was on march) and even before the lockdown ive been staying inside my room for few weeks. I shut down all of my social medias because smthg bad happened and i had my mental breakdown. Ugh its too much. But rihght now i just feel so stuck and off. I dont talk to a lot of people(friends) and i changed my number. I feel so lonely.
Hey, i understand how you are feeling . The emotion when you want to socialize but u feel too weird , nervous or even lazy ( in different way) to do so . You need to realize that its just the matter of time and you are too young to isolate yourself . Life isn’t going to be same always , it has ups and downs and times when you feel there is no one to understand you . I am 21 and i have also been through these stuffs and i would like to tell u to hang in there , cheer yourself because u are a very person and you will live a great life once you … and get well soon
Hii thank you so much for responding, really appreciate that. i just want a piece of advice, ive been thinking to take a therapy/go for counselling once i recover from my broken foot. I opened up to some of my friends and some of them said i was just exaggerating. I understand where they are coming from but somehow i just feel like i would benefit from that. sigh :( i tried socialising and talk to my parents, my siblings and sometimes when my cousins come visit us i would try to sit and talk with them. but i feel so off, i dont genuinely feel sincere when i laugh or smile. wish i could just put on a sad face all the time. But i dont wanna do that though
I don’t know why but I just relate to it so much except the part with the broken foot I just want cut myself down from everything and everyone and want to be alone
