hi. Last year I met a few new people and we became a friend group, but it went bad and the group split but they all have friends whilst I ended up alone. idk what to do and feel depressed. really sucks


Don’t worry, it will all end up ok. You will find your place again and it will be for much longer...

Friends

Actually I feel I'm totally fine
But still there is emptyness inside me that's what people who care about me keep telling me.
I just don't approach but I'm super friendly and love to make new friends.
Sometimes I get misinterpreted as I'm flirt or something hence endup losing many people in my life.
May be I'm confused
I don't know
I just stopped thinking.
I'm lonely but happy.

Lonely

writing this while my mind is in a dark place
friend said something a day ago, how they waited for me to hang out but i never came
i actually did tell them that we should hang out, so i basically flaked on them. it wasnt the first time either, it has happened many times before and i just feel so bad, ive just been kinda running away from it, havent talked to them in a day and dont feel like talking to them anytime soon. just been hanging out with other friends and stuff
honestly, since i woke up, i havent had the motivation to talk to them, and i definitely dont want to talk to them tomorrow too.
i just worry that one day maybe ill mess up really bad and it could ruin our friendship, i dont even have that much friends, definitely below 8.
after writing this i felt a little better. 

I am feeling restless today. I am in class 9. My class have a whatsapp group. Over there they all discuss about boyfriend and girlfriend. There are many so called "couples" in our class. My close friends often tease me because of this. I am new to this school and earlier I was in a girls school.So it is very awkward for me to even talk with them as a friend. I don't have a single friend who is a boy. My friends keep teasing me. They all are in love(relationship).I know that is not not at all the right age for all these and I am from a conservative family. I have a lot of dreams to be someone respectful. But my friends keeps on chatting with their bf  in the group. I kind of feel leftout. I want to focus on my studies but due to them I can't.

Education

How do you feel if someone had hundreds of friends and there's none to even reply you back on time....I am feeling the same...since last 2 years....there's none with whom I can share my ups and down...everybody comes to me to share their problems...they knows that I can answer there any problem...but none asked how I am...how I feel..how's my day...I can't reach those people to because they won't reply on time...I lost many things...only thing to lost is just me

Depression

Recently, because of covid I realized that I only have 2 friends who I text and always connect with. I feel awkward around new people and struggle to make friends, but I really wish I had a big friend group like in those Instagram videos you see a big group of friends doing fu stuff together. I used to have a friend group but they made a group chat without me and added my sister instead. They even named the group after our school name and my sister didnt even go to the same school as I did. It makes me feel like I wasn't good enough for them and that they didnt want me to be a part of their group. even my best friend has her own friend group. Honestly, it just hurts because even when Im surrounded by a bunch of people, I feel so alone, and like no one wants to hangout with me. sorry for the long essay, and if you read all the way I appreciate you so much

Unara friends!? 

Other

People are all fake. And then they wonder why no one comes to them. Why they get ignored. Why they have no one to go to. It’s because you don’t try to even give a shit. So no shit will be given to you. 

We had a group of 5 ... Things happen and it subdivided into of 3 and 2 people... I was among the 3 .... Used to give my extra efforts ,used to provide notes , used to wake them up for classes even though my room was on different floor everyday I used to go there to check upon them even if someday I wasn't in mood to do so... Used to go ,wake them up ,wait them to get ready before morning class... And one day they just left without me ... I realized that I was the one who was over doing things for them ... When I backed out the friendship between we 3 broke ... Now I am the only one left alone  ... Just because I can't pretend to be chill when I am pissed of ... It's been 3 months I haven't talked to them... Should I just forget and forgive and talk to them again because only 1 and a half year of college is left now

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