Hi I'm new here btw Is it cheating if you saw your girl chatting with someone and telling him that she wishes that it should be him instead of you,?



If she said that, then I’d be upset. That’s something that’s way too rude and disrespectful to say in a relationship. If you truly love a person then you wouldn’t say that to someone else. Would I call it cheating? No, but I’d say your girlfriend, no offense needs to learn how rude and  unnecessary that was. “I wish you were dating me, instead of my boyfriend.” 

um, that was disrespectful. i mean, if she loves you truly why would we ever say that to anybody. but yeah everyone has their weak moments. talk it out, ask her if everything's okay with the relation, if she's happy, tell her that this act of her hurt you and see what happens. take care<3

Look I don't know what happens between both of you but it will create issue between both of you if u don't sort out these things try to sort out and express your concern and also listen her maybe there is something which is wrong and u can sort out that too so do right things with right way okay 

Jealous

I'm 24....
Okay I just wanna work hard not to be rich 
Nope not at all...
I just want a stable profession a house, eat my fav food wear whatever I want, have a loving & understanding partner one small family and a better life and a place to retire that's it not much
Jyada ki chahat nhi hai 


Compassion

Hi...
I actually have this weird sense of mind. Even though I know I am not supposed to do something, I just keep overthinking about it......

My whole life I have been only worried about my future, what others will think about me and am I even accepted by all ? I know I am not supposed to overthink everything but I can't. It's like anxiety and stress has become part of my life. I tried to talk with my parents, they keep telling me that I am just overthinking and that I should forget about it. But I can't, I can't move from this pain and tension.

Growing up I wanted to be a perfect person. I used push myself to become perfect and if I don't get it right, I feel like my whole world is crumbling. It's like I am the only failure while others are way ahead of me. I know that's not the case and even if it is, I can always try my best but, I can't. I keep thinking low about myself that I eventually started hating myself, even while I am writing this. I really don't know what to do.

Also I keep thinking negative thoughts even though I know that I am not supposed to...... I tried meditation but I am so impatient.

I've been thinking about meeting a therapist but I don't know what choice to make...

Life

Happy Holi 🎨🌼🎉

Happy

I actually kinda hate my life. I'm way too anxious and it's like my mind is controlling me instead. There's no one in my family who will actually listen to me, and i just want to burst into tears all the time. I feel like i am letting everyone down including myself. I don't want to be here anymore. For so long, all i wanted is to be happy, but it's so hard to find. I should feel loved and happy and safe.....but i don't feel any of that. I feel useless and disapointing and lazy. 

Depression

Anybody up for chit chat

Suicide is murder and no doubt It's unforgivable sin.

3am Thoughts

So, I'm not sure if any of this is going to make sense, but I'm just going to write everything out to see if it does lol. If anyone gets this, or has been through it, I would love to know how you got through it. So, as stated before in my previous thoughts, I've been feeling empty these past couple of months. I even started cutting myself again to see if I can feel anything, and I can. However, my cuts aren't like other peoples. I don't draw blood. I mostly just scratch myself with something sharp enough to feel a little pain but dull enough not open flesh (so sorry if this is deeply disturbing to some, but I just need to talk without my therapist trying to send me to a mental hospital). The scratched feel good, they don't really hurt. They do leave scars though which is unfortunate. Back to the emptiness, I just feel empty. Like I don't really have a soul anymore. I don't care about anything. I've become pretty reckless. For example, I take medicine to put my to sleep, like many people do. I usually triple my dose because I want to be knocked out. After I take the medicine I drink some alcohol. Now, I'm not trying to kill myself and I know that's what it seems like, but I just like feeling the side affects of the medicine and the alcohol makes those symptoms bigger if that makes sense. At the same time, I know that's a dangerous, and a part of me wouldn't mind if I just didn't wake up. Another example is like when I'm going to work. I speed like everyone else lol but sometimes Ill swerve in and out of traffic, being very close to hitting a car and cutting someone else and they almost hitting me. Or going so fast when I get off the highway or turning that I might drift and hit the guardrail or go over a cliff. It's not that I'm intentionally trying to kill myself, but I also don't care to put myself in a situation where I could die. I don't care how anyone would feel about anything anymore. I used to care very deeply. Everyone's emotions and feelings mattered so much to me but they don't anymore. I don't care how my family or friends would feel if I just left the earth. Honestly, I feel like my dad would be mad that he has to pay for a funeral, if I were to even get that, and his reputation. He wouldn't really care that I'm dead. He would care that now he has no one to push over, or take serve him like his slave, or to take advantage of and take their money. He'd worry about what everyone is thinking about him and the money that'll come out of his pocket for a funeral. And possibly the time he'd have to take out of his day to plan the shit. Even after saying all this, I am terrified of death. I don't know what comes after this. Is it just blackness? Fire? Heaven? Do we get reincarnated into an animal? Or when I die, will I just see bright lights again while I come out of a womb and the horrible cycle continues? Like what happens? Would we even remember that we were who we were ? I don't know. But at the same time, wouldn't death be better than reliving a nightmare for the rest of your life? This doesn't get better. It wont get better. I've been living like this for 12 years now. Its never going to change I will never change. My thought process will never change I will always feel like this, think like this, do the things I do for the rest of my life. People say that it's a selfish thing, to kill yourself and leave your friends and family behind to mourn you. But how is it not selfish to want to keep someone alive while they're going through so much pain? How is it not selfish to want someone not kill themselves so it can make you feel better in the long run? I never understood that. How can you call someone selfish for doing that when you're doing the same thing? You want someone to stay alive for your benefit, not theirs. It's to make you feel better, comfortable, content, happy..at the end of the day that person still feels like their living in their own personal Hell. Sorry for the length of this, but this has just been weighing on my mind for a few years now. If anyone reads this, I appreciate the time you take out of your day to do so. Have a nice night/day everyone. 

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