Hi!

I’m just gonna put this here to make friends and meet new people

Feel free to comment below or send a message, i’m up for talking

Rebecca - Olivia

Sure, but cause your anonymous i can’t send you a message request 

Friends

When you're not the kind of person who gives up or back off easily on people or situations and suddenly you have to....
It hurts seriously feels like a challenge 


I got my grades card for this day
I have 2 blanks in 2 subj 
My teacher also said that i look lethragic (idk if its a right word) something like quiet, no activeness 
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Yeh thats my problem
I dont feel belong when im in school i dont feel happy with people surrounds me 
And i have anxieties in school too
Whats happening in my life now 😣
I used to be extroverted. All i do is observed people


Life

we broke up two days ago, and now we aren’t talking anymore. two years of a relationship, almost 3 years of friendship. bonds with his family. his father that had become like my own when the relationship with my own father was falling apart. his mother who scared me to death but who has tried to support me every day since. his sisters, who, if a little annoying, meant the world to me. all of it. gone. it’s hard to be angry at him. because at least he didn’t cheat on me. at least he tried to be civil. but it’s hard to lose everyone you care about because the person you love decides they don’t feel the same. 

Breakup

Any 3am thoughts?

3am Thoughts

I feel like I don't have a real personality. I see all my friends being able to hold a conversation and make genuine connections with new people like it's the easiest thing in the world and I'm struggling to get a "How are you?" out without feeling like l'm putting on a forced performance.

I feel like I don't have a real personality because I'm not too sure if I understand social cues and I don't know how to make jokes in fear of offending someone. I'm so in my head that when the other person is talking, I'm not actually listening, I'm too busy anticipating how I'm going to react in the most appropriate way.

My life is not that exciting and I'm not a good storyteller either. Whenever I speak, it feels like I drag the mood down and people only give the occasional pity laughs. I dread the long periods of silence as a conversation topic dies down and my brain scatters to find something to say but by then, it’s already gotten too awkward. Most of the time, I think it’s my fault it became that way.

I want to be myself and find people who makes me comfortable but it's hard when you’ve been “acting” all this time and you don’t know who you are anymore to make that judgement. 

Mental Health

Hi✨
How are you guys ✨

Dreams

Why is she not able to cut off from me even though I have been a bad friend. 
Mostly her being jealous and stuff but still I even told her  to cut me off but she still doesn't why is it like that?? She will change the subject and will just pretend nothing happened
I am considered cold hearted because I am not that much of an expressive person and i genuinely do not care because I considered us to be acquaintances and nothing more than that but in her case she calls me up daily saying that i affected her real bad and she won't be able to make any friends .
why is everything my fault, she was the one with high expectations and i have to hear her complaining daily 😭she says she should let me go which ig would be good for both of us but she can't because of her attachment issues
She is just too much I don't want to deal with her 😭

Confusion

Mera jo sanam hai ,
Bda beraham hai,
Dekr vo dard,
mujhe muskuraega..

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