Hi, i know that i should be able to figure this out on my own and all of that but i can’t. I just feel so horrible, my best friend treats me horrible and she always picks fights with me then plays victim and i always end up apologizing for everything and most of the time its for things i don’t even know that i did. I am also home schooled so i don’t really have any other friends other than 4 girls but they always end up defending her. I hate this so much it makes me so upset i pretty much cry myself to sleep every night. I can’t take it anymore, i cant break off from her because our parents are best friends and we are cousins. (the same age.) I just feel so alone and abandoned. Me and her, we were doing so good for so long, but then out of no where she stopped talking to me and she said when i asked her if you don’t know what you did then i don’t need to tell you think about it. Then we didn’t talk then she called me and apologized saying i was on my period and i didn’t know what to do so i just said that i didn’t mean it. She used me as a scape goat and I’m tired of it. I’m tired of being a rug but i don’t wanna be more alone. I’m sorry i know its weird but i thought i would give this website a shot. Thank you so much have a blessed day.
I pretty much understand the way you are feeling right now because I have gone through a similar situation. This friendship may feel toxic to you and if it keeps on going this way, you may lose yourself while saving your friendship. In my opinion, you can tackle this situation in two ways. Firstly, you can try confronting your friend about how certain things and her behaviour towards you are hurtful for you. I think you should tell her everything in the most honest but polite way ( if you will explain her these things with anger she may not understand your situation and will just try to defend herself ). Give her some time and see if she tries to improve this nature or if things get a little better. But if things still don’t change and she is ignorant to the problems you are facing then the last option will be to get out of this friendship. If she cannot understand you and does not value your emotions then anyway there is no friendship there. You can just try keeping a little distance without cutting off completely because if she is your cousin you will have to face her anyway. You can keep her as just as an acquaintance instead of a friend. You may feel lonely for some time but it is still better than being with the ones who don’t care for you. I hope this helps.