Hi I don't have friends I only have two friends I feel like I don't have people to talk Tom I feel bad. I don't know..,

Hey, you can talk here and share your thoughts. And some one will be happy to talk to you. 

Teenagers

I'm in college rn but i feel like i dont belong there. I always believe that be friends with those who help you grow. But i just cant vibe with any person i feel like they are bad influence. I dont know what to do

College

watching my friends have a good time without me 

Friends

I feel I am very unlucky when it comes to friendship and now I'm very tired of being so protective of my friends that I'm starting to feel suffocated by it . 
I've always somehow tried my best to hold a friendship but as soon as some other person comes , they shift towards them and this connection automatically goes weaker and then we ultimately stop talking . It happened so I started feeling bad about the third person coming between us , and somehow because of this I held too strong towards my friend that I may be now stopping them from connecting with other people because of my own insecurities and past issues . I feel bad , I tried to improve this thing and now my friend has 10s of other friends (I don't really feel a problem in this) but they start treating them the way they used to treat you that's where the problem arises . I will definitely not feel good when my friend is treating 10s of their other friends the same way they treat me. 
I don't know where , but I am just stuck feeling frustrated and helpless and friendless because my friends have 10s of other friends Idk 

3am Thoughts

Why do I feel that constant need of friends in my life? Is that because of age? 

sad feelings today , i mean i really kinda feel like no one really wants to talk to me in my college or class and just sort of ganged up against me making me feel guilty and everytime i try to overcome this , they show me like they are a better grp "without me" and this girl who is a friend(crush) of me is also behaving like she doesn't wants to talk to me and reduced the amount of chatting with me...please help😔

Overthinking

How often you think that the whole world is fake?

Confusion

So in the past I used to be a toxic person and talk about my friends and get jealous of their accomplishments and items and stuff and I admit it was bad but I learned my mistake and fessed up. I felt like a terrible person for saying all that stuff about my best friends and when I told them they were glad that I told them but they dumped me anyway which I can understand. Only my best best friend stayed with me because she wanted me to become a better person and help me out with it which I am really grateful for. But it's kinda hard without them because I hate whenever I go onto social media like for example discord and tiktok and see all of them with matching bios and pfps and everything and it makes me so sad because I could have joined them but they hate me now I think. My best best friend stayed with me but we don't really talk much that much because she's talking to the other people in my friend group. If anyone is reading this does anyone know how I can become a better person and less toxic because I wanna get my friends back or make new friends and prove to them that I've changed but idek how :/

What do you go against lonliness? 

I've thought about my life when it hit me. There's no one really consistent in my life. My friends aren't really good friends. I'm not my best friend's best friend. College friends seem temporary. No old friends from school left. No one thinks of me first when something exciting happens. No love interests, just rejections and retreats. It feels like I'm alone in this world with 8 billion people.

I just want to share my life with friends or a partner. 
But I can't find anyone who wants to stay.  

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