Hi guys! Please read the entire thing 🥺 it's bothering me a lot!!! 
There was a guy who was with me since first standard and it's been 4 years since I've completed my school. He proposed me in 8th standard and after so much convincing coz I was very new in this relationship thingy, We both got into this relationship. He used to care a lot about me but my school teacher got to know about it and she called the guy's parents. Things got super changed after that. I chose to stay away coz I know this could ho to my parents too and I really didn't want that. What was I? A teenager! It was 12th standard when we started getting close but this time physically. I thought things would go back to like what they were but after school got over, everything got over. I dream about him almost everyday and it bothers me a lot. We don't talk anymore!!! I don't know what should I do!! I'm dying to get back to what we were 😔 please help me out guys,nn

No, we did everything but sleeping together

We both just stopped talking. I used to message him and we talked normally and one day we just you know stopped talking 

Dreams

What do you think about female bestie? is it with you till wherever you want them ! They support you.? becouse i lost mine ..! They left me ..✌️✌️

Friends

Everything now has no taste .. I am not that type of person to just sit and do nothing, but now I feel different , I feel hopeless , I feel there is not taste in life , feeling blank inside , I hate when I get the feeling that my happiness depends on someone and that I don’t do anything till I feel good with them again .. this is so hard to deal with, even music doesn’t help , ig no thing will help .. :) 

Depression

Dang it, I’m still hungry

Healthy Food

As I’m slowly sipping my cup of tea, I get lost in my thoughts, none of them doing me any kindness. I gently take a sip, letting the hot liquid burn my tongue on it’s way down.
I feel like I’m drowning yet I don’t even try to get back to the surface. Why should I? Oddly, I find some sort of comfort in the consumption of my thoughts no matter how painful they are. They are still mine, after all.
 
Tell me, dear….
How do you describe the pain in your chest from feeling like you’re loosing someone while they’re still yours? How do you describe the pain of pushing away someone you still wanna keep?
I cannot.
Words fail their purpose as I fail my attempt of finding them.
The wind blowing outside, hitting my window, is soothing as it distracts me for a short moment. I listen to it and I wish with every cell in my body that I was anywhere but here right now. That I was anything but alive.
I wish it could take me away.
 
A tear falls over the edge and makes it’s way down at a steady pace. I make no offert though, to remove it, as my cheeks already are wet from all the other ones.
 
The deeper I drown, the heavier my thoughts weigh on my dead soul.
Do you fear loosing me the way I do as I feel like I’m loosing you right now? Do you worry about my thoughts the way I worry about yours? Do you feel us slipping further away from each other the way I feel we are? Do you care the way I care?
Do you hurt every time you make me cry? Does remorse even pass your mind by?
 
Why’s and How’s swirl around in my head and I can’t seem to make them stop.
My tea no longer burns as I continue drinking it, my cheeks still wet from the fresh tears.
 
How do you forgive someone when you wanna keep them in your life but the way they treat you makes you doubt your own value?
I feel like I’ve lost you while I’m currently loosing you all while you’re still mine.
Does that even make sense?
But you don’t even know.
If I told you my worries and the pain in my chest, would you laugh? Would you tell me to “calm down” or maybe to stop creating problems?
Would you even listen?
You used to be here even though you were away, yet now you’re away even though you’re here.
 
I’m slipping through your fingertips, and you don’t even know.
I feel like I’m loosing you while you’re still mine.
And you don’t even know.

Coming Out

Why do i just feel so good today 💗😌
Just having so much negative energies around but something that helped me to not think about this negative things are my positive energy which are affecting this ☮️💫
# positiveenergies
# begood
# afternoonfeels

Caregiver

So about 3 months ago I proposed my crush who was my good friend but she denied by saying that I am wondering person but she doesn't feel the same and but I all always get a vibe she feels something for me but anyway I respect her descion so I am not saying to her about this but I am feeling so hurted every single day because I really love her and I am still not over her I can't stop thinking about her like we were together how will react and all this when I watch something realted to couple mean any happy moments I think of her and then realized we can be together which always made me cry I am crying almost every night from 3 months and I know I am running my life because it's okay 2 months left to college to get over and I haven't figured anything for me but this feeling hurt so good and moreover she agreed that she will not ruin our friendship but lately I am getting a feeling now she is ignoring me I messaged her after a month and we are having some nice conversation but on middle of the conversation she is ghosted me and I know people will say get over her there more girl in this world , focus on yourself but I already heard alot of this from people 🥲🥲 and this is the only girl I have ever liked in my 21 year of life  she was  genuinely the first girl I ever liked i sometimes feel I am worthless and though she is a Very nice girl she deserves the best maybe I was not the best maybe I am worthless

Anyone wanna talk..❤

3am Thoughts

I'm not able to feel anything. People say that they are on neutral phase, neither happy nor sad. Me, I'm no where near neutral too. I thought I lost patience going through a rough phase earlier which should make me loose my cool but this is not something I'm able understand. All gone🙄

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