hi guys,
i feel so stuck at the moment. my mum is with a guy that constantly drinks and when he does he gets mean and passes out on the couch. my mum always defends him and says βhe has a lot on his plate right now " or " he hasnβt been drinking as muchβ they fight all the time even when she denies it. his been a complete a**hole to me the whole time Iβve known him, he called me horrible names and said things like βyou wonder why your dad doesnβt want youβ i never got an apology instead i got yelled at for showing attitude back to him after he said those things and he never got in trouble. every time he drinks it takes a massive toll on me and i sometimes i need to just talk to someone about it rather than bottling it up . my mum told me "if you say anything to anyone i will be VERY mad " and "i wouldnβt tell anyone about your business " so i cant talk to no one about it and especially her as she always gets defensive and Iβm always the bad guy in the end. Every time me and him get into a fight they always use things against me such as βhis good enough when he can buy you thingsβ .its such a toxic household and i feel so trapped.