Hi everyone… well its my first post on this app… I am going through a quite difficult phase of my life at the moment. I lost my husband due to COVID 6 months back and I am trying to rebuild myself, my confidence and trying to overcome the situation what I am going through right now. My motive to right this post is that I just want to share what I feel and I don’t want people to judge me.
When I lost him even I was also COVID positive that time… and was in home isolation. There was no one around me to lend a shoulder. I had survived those worst days of my life all alone. There were people around me showing sympathy that time and helped me to come out of the situation and they said you are a brave heart and etc etc. But after I have come out of that phase and when I am closely observing their behavior its really shocking for me to see that everybody is trying to judge me and my life.
If i am a bit louder they think that I am out of my mind. If I am silent they think that I am in depression… Every one is giving their own suggestion. Someone says to think about remarriage… but for me its not that easy for me to start all over again and forget everything like that. My husband was my best friend and guide. He was always there to help me… but now I am alone and don’t trust anyone…
yes… I will try to be strong
You took a great initiative coming on this platform. Interaction, affirmations and suggestions from fellow beings would be very helpful for your mental health. It’s really hard to realise your situation. But always believe that the Almighty has big plans for you ahead abd the days full of happiness and nights full of relief are on their way. Just try to heal from inside. Reading books, they don’t judge and are always one’s best friend and try to connect with your inner self, that will definitely help. May God bless you.
I cannot even fathom what you are going through. All I can say is thank you for expressing yourself here. There are more wise people who can say wiser things to you, i am sending lots of love towards you.