Hi Babygirl

Today I tried my best to be calm and initiate a good conversation between us, I failed again. Maybe you got bored. I was left with countless thoughts in mind as if you moved on or you no longer want me. I wanna say I'm sorry and I'm trying to change i just don't have the right words to express, you said you don't get text from anybody so i thought maybe if i could text you but i didn't asked.... i even think of calling you everyday but my mind stops me.
I miss you soo much
I miss us soo much

Every walk of life deserves respect.

Life

Day 1 of tracking human psychology as someone unrelated to the field of study of psychology based on my own personal experience. :-

1. Memory is unreliable, sometimes it varies with time depending on our emotions. So past actions and emotions that we might believe as real might just be something we want to believe in, in certain cases. 
2. Only two things make an identity of a person, first is their own values that they choose for themselves through their time of growing up by picking up values from their surroundings or family or through their own other observations. The second is the memories that one develops through various interactions since birth to share them with others and reminisce as a part of themselves as something that builds their values and personality. 

Conclusion :- 
So yeah having good memories can be said as the most important treasure one can have while growing up, even though it might be unreliable at times just like our friends. So guys maybe just focus on making some good ones and fak everything else. 🤓 (hehe just kidding) 

Affirmations

You are worthy. You are valued.
Allow yourself to forgive yourself.
You matter in every situation though whatever you are going through.
Be gentle with yourself.
♥️


Self Love

i hate you so much i wish i had never met you before.

3am Thoughts

Today is the day.. exactly one year before.. on this day.. I've found my world.. No matter you came in my life just as a friend.. but see now..I'm sorry that i didn't treated you good or how you needed to be treated.. i admit that i was not matured enough to love you.. but still you loved me so much.. and all i did was just hurt you.. from 1 year.. I'm all changed.. just because of you.. only for you.. thank you for holding me.. I'm very guilty for whatever i did to you.. if i could go back in time on same day as today.. I'll tell myself not to hurt you.. and to get out of that circumstances asap.. but now.. we do love each other so much.. but still i feel we have walls between us.. in this one year I've grown so much.. just because of you.. so thank you so much for creating this new me..

I don't know if you want me back or not, but I do want you back. I mean I want what we had back, I want everything you gave up on back, I want that hope and that love I wasted on you. I want all those night that I cried for you back, all this time hoping that we would finally be closer, hoping that we have a chance...you just gave up on me...on us. I was willing to do everything just so we can be closer even if it was for just a minute, and I thought that you felt the same... But I guess you were just lying to me, I guess you knew you were going to leave, it would've been nice if you would've told me too...

Breakup

What's the cringiest memory you can recall from adolescence or childhood?

Sry I don’t know y I did tat I didn’t mean to hurt u but I was pathetic yesterday deep down I wasn’t angry on u . I thought u cut the call cuz u were out but I couldn’t digest tat u didn’t call me the next full day. I waited like a fool until 2 thinking u would return my call but wen u didn’t it broke me I was reminded ab the time back in school wen u went home for a week how pathetic I was , I saw myself at the same point yesterday which was devastating. I really don’t wanna be in love it’s just a waste of time and energy and to be dependent on someone is something I’m not looking forward to tats y I wanna end all tis. I know both of us r happy like tis but the more v r invested in tis the more painful it will become. I really hope u consider tis for urself. I am just so stupid tat I always end up hurting u . I’m never nice to u. I trigger ur mood. All I want is for u and me to live life without any regrets. I just know I can treat u any way and u will accept it as long as I stay , I don’t wanna be selfish. I wanna let go . I don’t wanna love . Tis hurts way more than fighting, cuz I don’t mean anything wen v fight but tis just gets to personal. I am sorry I shouldn’t have started an ended story , I was being to selfish

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