Hi all,
Sitting in my balcony ,drinking a tea ,just gazing into the infinite white clouds makes me realize that beauty is indefinite. It could be beyond our thoughts. There are moments when we really want to block the disturbances around us, the struggles and leave behind everything by giving up. But what we forget is that ,this world is made too huge that it takes a lifetime to experience its beauty.Birds are chirping...wonder what gossips are they sharing.I sometimes do feel that curiosity about life could be a fuel. To know why ,how about anything could make every aspect of life wondrous. 
Be thankful for what you are and work without hesitation. Every time I look out the balcony the emotions are different though the view remains the same...yet what we feel each day is unique. Being human the most unique aspect lies in imagination. Discover every atom in you.Learn to acknowledge everyone .Respect your life and take nothing for granted.
good day friends.

Thanks for the aspiration and yes, nature is beautiful and calming.

Life

my best friend is always talking bad about one of her friends, but never tells her friend what is bothering her and just acts normal in front of her. not only do i believe it is wrong, it also makes me scared that she would talk about me the same way behind my back, but i feel like i can’t talk to her about it because i don’t want to start any arguments

Friends

Hi, I just fell in love with a girl who I was attracted to initially. I talked to her a lot, confessed her that I liked her, she said that she needs time which I was ok with. We used to talk too frequently and all of a sudden she says that she can’t talk much with me. And I just can’t get over her. 

Crush

Morning with a mug of tea & doing something which is effective for myself ❣️☘️🙏

My friend of 3 (nearly 4) years blocked me without a word a few days ago. I sent them a friend request and after a long time they accepted and sent me something like nothing had happened, so (ik this sounds dumb and immature lol) i sent just the cowboy emoji because i felt awkward, im autistic and dont know how to respond in certain situations like this. they said something like "why did you even friend me if you were gonna be like this?" and blocked me again.
I have no idea why they did it, the only thing i can think of is because i was being dry/not talkative that day. But we've been friends for roughly 3 years so i dont know why suddenly *then* they decided to end it. I dont know if theyre going through something or what because i know they have issues at home and with anger and shit. But its making me paranoid as hell. I've never held friends long and i already have issues with an inferiority complex and my self esteem in general. I have other friends to talk to so its not like theyre the only one, but it makes me feel sick to my stomach to think i did something wrong and i dont know what it is. If i did do something to make them react like this then of course its their choice not to tell me if they feel i dont deserve it, but i cant help but be anxious. 

Not being able to hold friends for more than a few years makes me feel like im, like, a shit person. which i already think i am. People leave me so often that i cant help but feel like im the problem and not them. Am i too much to handle? Am i obnoxious? is it cuz im bad with emotions? I don't understand why it keeps happening but ever since my dad pointed it out i cant help but wonder "Why don't i keep friends?"

I have mental illnesses and im currently sleep deprived so im focusing on it way more than i should be but its making me feel nauseated. 

Self Esteem

I miss my school so much, the place I spent 8 hours a day from when I was 3 years old until I turned 15, then I switch to another high school very against my will, a horrible place I hated, days went by slowly, everything was boring and I just felt like I lost 2 years staring at a white wall. I just got into college and I'm still not over my old school, my old small town. When I left I had my group of 5 friends that always had my back, within them my best friend that I've known since I was 6 whom I used to fight with every other day but we'd always get back together no matter what. For the longest time, I thought I was lonely and they were the only ones I really had but I slowly started to realize that wasn't true, everyone had my back, even that one kid who used to constantly make fun of me thinking he was so funny or whatever, he was there for me too. I realized that when I was at my lowest point, so many people I never expected showed me love and support, when I used to cry in a corner cuz I argued with my best friend I was quickly surrounded by my entire class, cheering me up and ready to fight the one that made me cry, I liked that. My last day of school, some people wrote messages on my wall ( a huge piece of paper we all had and every end of the year people could write a message) I never got many, and that one time I didn't either but two stood out to me, I barely knew them but i felt so understood by the words they wrote me, I hope they're doing well. I feel like I wasted my time there too, I have so many good memories looking back yet I went through so much unnecessary stuff and that was all my fault, can't believe i allowed that, can't believe i didn't know how good i had it. I also miss my favourite teachers, the ones that treated me like a daughter and looked after me. I wish i could get over it but i really wish this was just a dream, I want to wake up and be back home. 

Memories

I don't know what should i feel. Everyone around me are getting good things. Some are finding love in their life, some are getting huge incriment, some are going abroad for higher studies, some are getting the things they want. I'm the only one stuck at one point. No matter how much i push myself or work hard, I'm still at the same point. Can't reach anywhere, can't do anything except feel sorry for myself. I'm just lost. And the thing is i can't even share this with anyone. I don't know what I'm gonna do with my life.

Anxiety

How to start a convo!
Any suggestions 😀

Caregiver

I feel so unwanted. Being in a relationship yet not being given back love, respect, time or anything. And always being cheated on in some way or the other. And still im not able to leave him despite of knowing that i dont deserve this and i am much more than that. I feel so upset. Just need someone to tell me and guide me. 

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