Hey you.. yeah u just don't overthink everything chill out who are real will stay don't try to force friendship or lovee
Chill out babe everyhtings gonna be ok ur eventually gonna find who loves u truly

M Pary

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Once you got cheat from one person,, Never trust those , either you are scold as a fool

Motivation

Sometimes I feel afraid to talk people cos one day they will leave me for good, I always wanted to have a bestfriend that he/she always there for me and I'll be there for them but nah nowadays people are so selfish and move on so fast, did anyone else thinks like I do? 

Why do I always get left behind by people whom I think were my closed friends? I mean, for some reason they just disappeared in my life and then we became strangers. I'm not needy or clingy kind of person but sometimes I also want to have someone/friend who I can talk to, share things, have a good laugh, cry, or just talk random nonsense things. I missed having friends. It has been 3 years that I have noone to be called as my "friend". I dunno whats wrong with me. Im not a bad person or a bad friend but I dunno why, people just passed by in my life and noone is really staying as my friend. Its really unfair because when I get attached to them, they just leave and thats it. We became strangers. I guess that is how it is. Im fine with that but sometimes its just so sad to be alone and have noone to talk to. 

Friends

Recently, because of covid I realized that I only have 2 friends who I text and always connect with. I feel awkward around new people and struggle to make friends, but I really wish I had a big friend group like in those Instagram videos you see a big group of friends doing fu stuff together. I used to have a friend group but they made a group chat without me and added my sister instead. They even named the group after our school name and my sister didnt even go to the same school as I did. It makes me feel like I wasn't good enough for them and that they didnt want me to be a part of their group. even my best friend has her own friend group. Honestly, it just hurts because even when Im surrounded by a bunch of people, I feel so alone, and like no one wants to hangout with me. sorry for the long essay, and if you read all the way I appreciate you so much

Lonely

Its not a comfortable feeling seeing my friends being in a relationship and mostly it's a end of the school life so they all been in a relationship in their school life.
So in the end of my school life I also wanna be in relationship.And yk it's the feel like mostly boys are attracted to friend whenever I go  out with her idk if it's real or not ,or she just portrays that everyone thinks she is very attractive and they are begging to be in a relationship with her .I just think she just potrays it,So I feel a little insecure about me at that time
And I don't know how others respond to me and her if we are together. So I don't keep a feel that they'll talk to me and all because she has been in contact with them for a long time. I know this is not the right feel but I just feel it I can't help it . What should I do ????

3am Thoughts

I just want attention sometimes and I feel really bad for it but I'm always helping my friends and doing everything for them. They just use me they never talk to me, unless they are bored and can't talk to anyone else. They have done that before but it always makes me feel guilty and whenever I tell them I feel bad they make me say sorry to them all for making them seem like the bad guys. They like this guy and I try to tell jokes to get there attention but the two of them walked over to the guy they like and told it to him. Looked like he liked the joke I guess.🙁 So many people say just drop toxic friends but I would have no one and talking to people makes me freak out and I cry just at the sound of things like group projects. I feel like I have to options suffer or be alone and they both sound pretty bad to me.

I don't know why but i don't open up with my friends. I don't want to tell them my career plans and what's happening in my life and they think that I'm not good as they are.

Friendships are really getting my nerves idk what's happening I'm very unlucky in friendships since the beginning . All I wanted was a good friend who stay loyal to me that's it . Someone who mattered a lot to me sometime , I did every possible thing I could for them , I did literally everything anyone could ever want from a friendship and when my time came to need those things , they didn't show up and they gave their reasons to me . I could've even believed those reasons if I saw them behave well with me now after all this happened. They just distant themselves from me after everything I did for them and I felt very very bad . And now when I see them , making new friends and ignoring me and just being them .. I just feel bad seeing them because I did nothing wrong to them and all I got from them was anger and anxiety issues and frustration.  I feel very bad that they've now happily moved on and I'm still stuck when I was the one who did everything right since the beginning. I feel bad that once upon a time we had such a great great friendship and now when we even see each other in classes , we don't even talk anymore and nothing can go back to where it was . All this , without even making any mistake .
Friendship is very very difficult for me now and I'm seriously not able to do it because it is getting my nerves and I feel very bad now when they're just behaving with me selfishly and treating everyone the same way they used to treat me when they told I was special

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