Hey you.. yeah u just don't overthink everything chill out who are real will stay don't try to force friendship or lovee
Chill out babe everyhtings gonna be ok ur eventually gonna find who loves u truly

M Pary

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Once you got cheat from one person,, Never trust those , either you are scold as a fool

Motivation

I can't anymore😭 why are they coming back at the same time that everything got fucked up, and the worst is that it's not because of me that they came back, it's because of her who is ruining my life by pleasure and I don't even know why we're still friend, why am I still friend with people that I don't trust at all? why am I still friend with the same persons that ruined my life and still is, why is my loneliness affecting me so much that I'm going back to them just to ruin everything again

Life

Do You want to express how you feel to your friends but your mind makes you think that you're bothering them and they don't like you so you keep in silence? 

Frustration

Isn't it really irritating when you support and understand your friend's feelings but when it's your time, they just dismiss you and label you as a bad guy? This is the reason why I feel better having no friends. 

Friends

Okayy so I had a friend a circle was super close to them met them in 11th before this I never had any close friend group or anything so was super happy and grateful to have found one .All things were going well for some while at least that's what I thought until one day I opened up and said that I am an attention seeking person and I need some kind of validation from  others and for that they judged me hard by saying that "ooh u want attention and large friend group ","you have changed " and what not. The following days it started getting worse I was not growing I was being super dependent on these people I had no social connections other than them cause I didn't try to cause I thought they'll be there for me forever.I was scared to lose them cause I had no other ppl other than them I was not being myself I went into this deep dark place in my life I even contemplated suicide cause I thought I was not worthy of them all them were super beautiful and pretty and I was the duff among them. Finally one day I gathered some courage and left the group ,the day I left the group everyone started bitching about me by saying that I said that ,this blah blah and conveniently left their part of them telling me the same thing agreeing to whatever I said .I was more than devastated when I heard what was happening . Now again i was alone back to square one I am healing now slowly but this incident has fucked up my anxiety I can't open my insta cause I'll see them hanging out together which cause  a breakdown for me cause I was never prepared for this but ig life's all abt these kind of situations were your not prepared for anything. Now at present the things I have learned from this is that nothing is constant in your life except you. Letting go of things may seem hard but it creates space for new things to happen. I have not healed from this cause anything that reminds me of them still cause a knot in my stomach. Those people were toxic and judgemental even I was but now since I am out of this group I feel free for the first time I have started to unlearn and  at the same time learn a lot of things. Since I was super depended on them it feels strange to not say each and every fucking thing happening in my life which is something I had to do even when I was not keen of doing the same cause I later I will be accused of not doing the same. See I am not saying I was right the all time fuck no I was also super toxic and negative on myself anything that happened in my life I had to point out the negatives always that I end up forgetting about the positive aspects about it, I was also super toxic so ig it was with the best interest of both us that this happened. 
But still I want to move on with my life keeping this aside I am aware that this will take time but I am not sure how to go about with this.. I am sorry my grammar and punctuation are all over the place but yeah I didn't want to disturb the flow.

I love how people will talk to you as they support you but in an instant they'll talk about you behind your back and then come back to you like nothing happened....Like wtf, you think you can come back and act all normal as if nothing ever happened...yeaaaaaa no. I shouldn't have fake friends with fake smiles. I want fun, messy, honest, and crazy friends are who they say they are. I wanna make bad decisions and have you cut my hair because its hot and why not!?!?!?! I wanna sneak out late to go get food!!!! Anyone else with me....? 😞

sometimes it feels like i do know a lot of people but i barely have friends. I'm not sure if it true 

Confusion

 I don't know what's going on. So I have a group of friends, and we have been friends since childhood other than them I don't have any friends, nowadays they're getting kinda disconnected from me, they don't invite me to hang out with them and I always feel so left out they always exclude me whenever they do anything and when I initiate any conversation with them, they don't even respond to me properly, and as far as I remember they started slowly disconnecting with me since the past 6 months, I tried to confront them but they made it clear that it's not me,they have no intentions of excluding me and everything and that cleared up, but now they're again slowly starting to exclude I feel so bad because I don't have any friends and just no one to talk to, I don't really know why they're doing this, because we've known each other for so long and suddenly this change just feels wrong, I feel like maybe I have outgrown them or something like that not really sure, it sucks tho frowning

yesterday never in my life i felt so so so alone i could acutally went through my messenger found no one to vent my suffocated feelings ,there were plenty people on my list ,many have been venting their feelings their happening to me .it was me i couldnt do the same back to them but why? i dont trust them? or is it i dont want to show them this side of me ,weak ,fragile,emotionally unsatsisfied .they dont know this ,the real me on the other end of this cell phone :( 


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