Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Hey strangers,
I wanted to share something happened to back two weeks ago. It’s always a similar story to every guy here but lemme try to put in a way maybe it sounds interesting? I hope it is.
Being an emotional fool I got attached to this girl in my bachelors and of course she just saw me as a best friend even though I knew the outcomes of my feelings I confessed and got it out my chest. But what I did was I stayed with her as a friend and our friendship developed. It had everything in it ups and down. She falling for someone and I becoming a psychopath for months and not talking to her. Then decided to give up on emotions, relationships etc and focus my career and my closest friends and I started to talk to her again. And then during covid was the best period we spent our time studying together online and we were there for each other ever moments and it felt nice. We spent the new year together online. And celebrate each other birthdays and shared our dreams of going to Europe for higher studies. Then we did it we are in Europe. I am studying in Italy and she’s in Belgium. But we haven’t met for years it has been like two and half years I met her and we finally decided to meet her in Paris. So we decided a trip after our exams. Before we met the day night she was asking about stuffs like something I never told her or something you are feared to say. So I casually told her that I won’t able to feel for someone else like I felt before. I indirectly told it was about you how I felt before L. She got that and she didn’t speak until we met. We finally met in Paris and it felt so good and I was so freaking happy to see her. Then that night we went to drinks and she confessed that she has feelings for me and man that felt like heaven and even till this day I can’t believe but unfortunately we are separated now. It lasted for a month and now it feels like all gone and lost. The trust I had for her was gone in a second and the years took to build the friendship it was taken away. The one person I never meant lose was lost. Why is it so unfair?